There is this woman at the train station. I have the biggest crush on her. She has long brown hair, is around 5’7 and has soft brown eyes. She is kind of lean to medium build.
I found out some of her personal information on the internet- after finding out her name. I did a reverse address search on her home. (Which I only found out by accident.) She is an events coordinator for a big company.
I looked up her info, just to give her a name in my mind when I see her. Nothing will ever become of us. I am a woman also, and she is probably straight and homophobic.
I can barely even say “Excuse Me” to her. I don’t even walk past her anymore, even If I need to, no eye contact, nothing.
We ended up sitting next to each other one morning last week. I turned my back to her as if I was looking at something- the ENTIRE trip. I saw her reflection looking at me incredulously as I checked my watch like 20 times.
I just cannot say anything or do anything around her. Clumsiness strikes with a vengeance.
I am just happy to see her whenever she is there. That is that. One day I probably will leave this neighborhood, and never see her again, and oh well, that is life.
I’m just going to enjoy this for now- and who knows, maybe we’ll even say “good morning” to each other one of these days….yeah right!