I study art and am at the college level now. We do all mediums, including photography.
My class is mostly women and I am also. We did a series of life studies, you know, figure studies in charcoal. Models come in and pose for us. It was hard at first, but it’s pretty normal now.
The weird thing is, I secretly hope that one day the model doesn’t show? And, then they would ask if any of the students would like to stand in. My weird fantasy is that it’s me and I take off my clothes and take up my spot under the sky light completely, absolutely naked. And then my class mates would study me and stare for a very long time. I don’t know why, I’m very modest and really cover up my body normally. But I seriously want to be painted or sketched without clothes.. I’m tired of drawing other people.
I think this goes back to when I was twelve and the Titanic came out, when she posed for that drawing, I had a serious desire to have someone ask me to get naked for a drawing! BUT, oddly enough, I would not want someone to take my picture naked, but art somehow makes it seem above normal nakedness? I can’t explain it, but it seriously turns me on!!!!! Maybe it’s the next best thing to being naked in public? Only in front of art students in stead.
Or, as I think about this, maybe I want to see how they draw me and how they see me?