whyyyy?

Why don’t you have any ambition? You always think that whatever you’ve done is some kind of herculean effort that deserves praise. And if something goes wrong it’s everyone’s fault but yours.

But I work my ass off and no matter how much I do all I see is what’s still to be done…and if I screw up it’s my fault, it’s ALWAYS my fault.

I think you’re getting a better deal out of this partnership than I am. I feel used and screwed and lonely. I don’t ask much of you, but you could try to act like my requests aren’t so damned unreasonable. All I hear from you is how hard school is and how you wish you could quit your job to focus on school and how lucky I was that I could do that. You know what? You’re remembering it all wrong. I went to work too. Maybe not fulltime, maybe not every semester, but I also managed our home which is a job all its own. I worked so much harder than you’ll ever admit, and when I tell you how much I do, all you say is ‘well do you want me to do it?’

HELL YES I DO! But you know what? I don’t say that because I know you’ll never actually ante up and DO THE WORK. You just wait until I get frustrated and do it myself. You’ve got a pretty freakin’ sweet deal here!

What am I doing with my weekend? CLEANING THIS HOUSE. COOKING FOR YOU. LOOKING FOR THINGS THAT YOU WANT.

What am I doing with my life? CLEANING THIS HOUSE. COOKING FOR YOU. LOOKING FOR THINGS THAT YOU WANT.

I want more from life than this. I feel like I’ve grown up and you haven’t. I feel like I’m turning into someone that doesn’t need you anymore.

When’s it your turn to grow up? I can’t wait forever.