My Secret Plans

My husband told me he wanted a divorce a month ago. This is the fifth time he’s told me that. The last time was a year ago and I told him to never make that threat again unless he means it. The same week my husband told me he wanted a divorce, my cousin invited me to spend Thanksgiving with her family and I accepted, thinking that I’d be moved out by then. Normally, my husband invites his friends and his mother to our house and I do all the cooking. I’ve told him that I wish he’d discuss these things with me before he invites people over, but he keeps doing it.

Now my husband is acting like nothing is wrong (the divorce was never mentioned again) and doesn’t know that I’m leaving town for Thanksgiving (or that I’m moving out). Our anniversary is the weekend after Thanksgiving and we traditionally spend the weekend where we spent our honeymoon.

If I told him my plans, he’d pout and be mad and I’m afraid he’ll get violent so I haven’t told him. He keeps telling me to stay out of his business, so I am.

Maybe I’ll be moved out by next Thanksgiving, but that will be a miracle.

I feel guilty for skipping out on our anniversary weekend and leaving him holding the bag for Thanksgiving dinner.