I want to be a CD/TV prostitute and escort

I am a long time, semi-passable CD/TV. I’ve been wishing an experienced transsexual Madam with a harem of “girls” would take what I am, tweak my looks and mannerisms and firmly guide me into a part time life as an acceptable CD/TV hooker and escort working for her. Yes, with pics of me online and lists of services provided and rates. Do in-calls and out-calls. Be rated on TER.

Fact is, I have a good job and have always had a decent life. It’s not about the money (altho that would be a turn-on), I think it’s about submission. First, to a demanding Madam who molds me into a “girl” that men would pay for. Then to the anonymous Johns who I don’t know and don’t care about who would use me for their own gratification. Logically, I know it’s a dangerous and probably unfulfilling life but the craving to prostitute myself is real and unrelenting.

I’ve thought about being a common cd bar slut just to satisfy my need but the weird excitement of knowing I’d be a working girl in a questionable trade would better feed my emotional need to be submissive. It’s scary to think that if I ever do this I’d probably fall into a death spiral of needing more and more until whoring becomes the entire focus of my life. Ohmygawd!

It’s a good thing there are no Madams around here since I KNOW I would do this given the opportunity. I don’t pretend to understand it. But I hope I can resist the urge since I’m sure it would not be worth the pain.