I don’t feel guilty about it
Posted by Stuck in Sex on Dec 21st, 2009 | 8 commentsI’m 31 years old and I have been having sex with a married man for about 2 years. It’s not a relationship, honestly we just use each other for sex and it really means nothing to either of us. I don’t feel sorry about it or guilty, I have no feelings about getting caught…it just doesn’t matter to me anymore. I haven’t had the best experiences with relationships and this just seems like the only thing I can handle right now. But I sometimes fear that this may be the only thing that I can handle. Sex is just so much easier than actually trying to work at a relationship. It is so much easier than giving my heart and past to someone and being rejected. Everyone around me is moving on, getting married, having children and I’m just stuck.
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Then why are you confessing if it means nothings and you don’t feel bad? Who are you really trying to convince:)
I’m jealous of you.
Enjoying sex for purely the enjoyment of it, sounds great to me.
So why are you confessing?
Are you convincing yourself that this is ok?
I’m not saying there is anything wrong with what your doing just wondering why your confessing.
I guess I’m confessing because I feel somewhat scared that this is the only relationship that I can handle. I’m not confessing because I feel guilty. I’m nervous that I’ll never be able to move on from just sex and everyone around me is developing normal relationships and I just can’t bring myself to actually trust someone and love someone to do that. I’m scared.
I hear your fear and not any guilt. I’m glad that you are concerned, if you don’t see it, you can’t change it.
Good Luck!
The worst part is I don’t know if I really want to change how things are. In reality I know that I can’t continue living like this forever but the option of having a “normal” relationship is not appealing to me. I don’t want a boyfriend, don’t want to get married, and I don’t want children. I like living my life on my own and just having this casual relationship. He’s married so he can’t bother me too much. I do understand that this is wrong, that I should walk away because he is committed to someone else. The problem is I don’t care that he is committed to her, I don’t care that he doesn’t love me, I just want him to have sex with me and that’s all that matters.
You suck! My husband cheated on me and it ruined our family! I always wondered why ***** like you are thinking when they killing somebody’s family.
I’m sorry that husband cheated on you and it ruined your family. It’s not right what I’m doing and I understand that it’s hurting people. This started before he got married, he was dating her and it was a casual relationship with me and him and it has just never stopped. It’s not like I intentionally went after a married man, I just never ended it when he got married.
As far as the name calling; if you ever met me or saw me on the street you would never suspect any of this from me. I’m the most innocent looking person you’ll ever come across. I’m a very caring RN and I take care of patients all day that are recovering from surgery. My friends and family don’t even know that this has been going on.
I actually do have a conscience, just not about sex.
I want to point out that I am not judging you or saying that I know “the” answer. I just know from reading your confession that this something that you wanted/needed to get out of your inner world, in a safe way. I also read that you fear venturing into a different type of relationship or that you don’t have the internal resources to have any other type of relationship. Over time that will change. I’m glad you aren’t beating your self up. Hang in there.