Former Prostitute
Posted by Anonymous in Sex on Mar 28th, 2009 | 12 commentsI was prostituting for approx 6 months. I thought that moving half way across the country would cure my pain but it seems to have followed me. I decided to leave the only person that knew about it. Now that Im meeting new people I kind of feel like I will never find someone that I trust enough who will accept that. It was a VERY bad decision and everything is working out so much better for me now, thats just the only thing thats bothering me….who would want to be with someone who has that in their past…
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stop beating-up on youself. you did it, decided to stop, cool. now move on. besides just about everybody has done some wild sh@t in their lives.
I’ve known a couple pro’s as friends in my younger days. They were nice and I’d have been happy to have married a particular one but she wasn’t ready for that. She ended up moving away after a bad experience (cigarette burn) with an idiot. I sometimes still think of her though and I hope she is happy.
You should not worry about your past and keep working on building up your self esteem. It will help you. There’s plenty of good guys out there who don’t care a bit about ancient history.
Whatever you do don’t feel that because of your past you have to “settle” for less than you deserve. There’s a good one out there for you and don’t give up until you find him.
you took the right decision,
stop thinking of past and move to
the future which looks brighter than
ever. all the best
It’s ok…It’s really ok. I have done many things I regret… but that doesnt mean that I lose the hope for a perfect future. Stop living with your past. Love your present, your “NOW”. You know u deserve to be happy.
I know that women think like you, but you are wrong. I married a virgin and I love her but if she had been a prostitute for a while I think it would reallyhave helped our sex life and thereby our marriage. Your sexual past is part of you now and I know you don’t think so, but many guys including me will consider it an asset.
I was an escort for about 7-8 months. I had just turned 18 and my boyfriend at the time (big loser) lost his job and wasn’t looking for another one. I was over 1,000 miles away from my family and didn’t know what to do. I didn’t think I could leave him because he was ” the love of my life ” (yeah right). Well, I heard about escorting and it didn’t sound bad. They of course said that I didn’t have to do anything I didn’t want to. Promised myself I would not have sex, only other things. That didn’t go over well with clients (almost got raped a couple of times). After a couple of months I realized what the real deal with the escorting thing was and it was horrible. I got out of it after a major break down to my family. They flew me back home. Eventually I broke up with my ex. It took a while to get over everything. There was soooo much anger at myself, my ex, and men in general. But, I finally moved past it. I look back at some of my memories in shock and sometimes I just have to laugh at all the crazy stuff I put myself through (people like some wierd things). The anger and grief will fade. You will realize it was a choice you made and it doesn’t define you. Someone will love you for who you are and not what choices you made in life. I’m actually glad I went through those things now because I feel like I learned a lot. I think it made me grow up and it taught me about the “real” world. Continue making good choices for your life and you may be surprised what will come your way. I’m just thankful that I made it through all that. I feel happy that I’m a strong person and you should too!
Oh dear igot frightened on hearing yr story , it shuld not have happened,
but fate has its way and what u did
was beyond yr imagination & u had no control, god bless whatever happened,
but donot blame the poor b/f justas
he didnot had enough money to support you
and how can he be responsible for yr
unreasonable actions by joining an escort
in favour of leaving a b/f , i guess mistake is yours also, god bless
anony,
If you look at my post I clearly state that it was my own choice and I was mad at myself as well as my b/f. I guess I should have explained why I was angry with him.
He tried to act like my pimp. He would take every penny I earned. He would always have at least $1000.00 in his wallet and I would have NONE. My job was a secret, so in turn everyone thought that I sat at home on my ass while he worked and made all the money. That is very frustrating when someone else is getting all the credit when they do nothing but abuse you and you are out risking your life and going through horrible things every night. All the stuff we had he claimed as his. New car, new clothes, everything. His family thought I was lazy be cause everytime they would call him in the late afternoon, around 4, I would just be waking up. They thought that I didn’t work or do anything, like everyone else thought, not realizing I had been going on calls the night before sometimes until 8 in the morning to make all the money for their son to take from me. He would even drive me to my calls and make me tell him what happened. Not to mention he was an alcoholic and drug addict. After all that I stayed with him when my family flew me back home for another 2 yrs. I finally broke up with him when he ended up doing cocaine behind my back and beating the crap out of me. I had to go to court and get a restraining order because I had tried to break up with him a couple times before, and he would stalk me and say that he was going to kill himself if I didn’t get back with him. So he was not so innocent.
I definitely admit that it was my decision and I should have left him. I feel people have control over their own destinies. I was young and nieve. Like I said before I learned alot during that time of my life. I learned the hard way. It devolped me into the strong woman I am today. When I was younger I took alot of things for granted because I grew up in a well off family. Living through the things I did turned me into a very grateful person. I do not take things for granted anymore. I also think it prepared me to meet my husband. I would have never accepted a nice guy when I was young. I liked the bad boys, until what happened with my ex. It was a wake up call. I met a wonderful man that treats me with respect and gives me all the love and attention I deserve. That is something I would have never thought I would have received before. I love my life!
Amanda, your story is so inspirational and am sure the sister who posted her story has learnt a thing or two. The most important thing is to accept that we have made mistakes in the past and learnt from those mistakes. You got to pick up yourself and continue living your life and leave the past in the past!
way to go I also prosituted myself without a pimp though was my own choice whenever I needed money to pay rent.. that was another life now I’m married with seven children to a wonderful loving husband
This man would be with a woman like you. My wife did some escort work, which is, as she will freely admit, still prostitution, when she was younger to pay the bills.
It took tremendous courage for her to tell me about her past, and made me love and respect her all the more for trusting me and being so honest.
I will tell you what I told her, we all have things in our past, my sexual history contains many dubious encounters, one very good example being having an affair with a friends wife.
In my opinion that is far worse than my wife’s past work as an escort.
As a man, I don’t care where you have been. i understand having made mistakes, we all have, no exceptions.
If you were my girlfriend/spouse, what would truly matter to me, would be your committment to me and me to you. Love and respect now and everyday. Your past ?, i forgive, just like you would forgive mine.