I’m in a committed relationship and I love my girlfriend we get along so well. She is older than I am and indont feel physically atracted to her. This hasn’t been a problem for as long as I’ve known her I have and still do love her for who she is. But the last couple years I fell in love with someone else who it is is for a whole other confession. I think she knows I’m in love with this person but she loves me and probably feels stuck. We have a kid together I love my child very much and the stress of being torn between 2 people is starting to kill me. I don’t eat any more I just don’t feel hungry forcing myself to eat makes me sick. I talk about this other person a lot. And I am noticably depressed and I know it hurts her. I wish I could make it stop but I can’t. I wish I wasn’t this way I never planned for this to happen. Writing on here has helped some but the problem still remains. How do you love 2 people the same for different reasons? I also take massive doses of pain killers not just from the physical pain I live in every day but because of the emotional pain I hate myself for betraying her love and for the betrayal of the other person I love. I’m not supposed to be in love with her. Its so hard. I have created a nice little hell for myself now I get to burn in it until I die from it. Thanks for letting me vent.