I have been married a long time and the passion in my marriage died and I began meeting women on the internet. I never thought this would catch up to me and then I fell in love with a young woman, half my age, and lied to her about my age and my kid’s age and not being married. She found out and my wife found out and everything blew up. My wife has been trying to forgive me and we are trying to work things out but I feel a heavy weight on my shoulders. Sometimes I want to die for lying to these people I love. Now I am still seeing other women, I can’t stop. I need sex and passion as a man, but need to support and love my family. What the hell am I doing? I literally feel the only way out of this black pit is death.