Secret Confessions

I’m sorry I was a bitch at your wedding.

You probably think it’s because I don’t like you any more, or because I don’t approve of the marriage. That’s not true. You’re amazing. Your partner is amazing and the wedding was amazing.

So the truth of the matter?

It was because you broke my heart when you didn’t ask me to be a bridesmaid.

I’ve stopped informing my friends of when I cut myself or relapse because I think they’re getting sick of me.
I have a feeling they don’t want to hear about my problems anymore. They’ve lost interest, though they’d never tell me.

The problem is I always feel so much better after I’ve told them and got it off my chest.
I tell them I’m fine now, but I’m not.