nothing lasts forever…..

I really want to break up with my girlfriend. We’ve been living together for a year, and I have been the provider the entire time…she is into graphic design (she hasn’t graduated from college yet), but she can’t find a job doing what she loves (besides the occasional freelancing). Persistence is fine with me, but she refuses to pick up a job in another field during the mean time, almost as if she doesn’t have to because she knows I’ll always pick up her end of bills and whatnot. Oh, did I mention that I am a stripper and a FT college student, and I’m 3 years younger than her but I’m more independent than she’ll ever be? I feel like I have a kid and not a girlfriend……she knows that once our lease is up, I’m leaving her because leaving her now is too troublesome, and I don’t feel bad that she knows. But the strain of having to deal with all of our financial responsibility is aparent on our relationship. I barely want her to touch me….and when she does attempt to be affectionate, I hiss her away. I’ve never been a lovey-dovey person, but part of me also feels that if she had a more steady job, I would find her more desireable. she has lost her luster (in my eyes) and I can no longer hide it.