RSSMy Ex-babybunny
I gave my heart to you. I went from University student, to community college attendee living with his parents, just to be closer to you.
I changed lifelong plans, and lost incredible chances, just to make sure we could be together.
I broke great friendships off, because people said you weren’t good for me.
Then one night I get a phone call from your best friend in college. She tells me theres something I deserve to know.
She proceeds to explain to me, that you’ve had several sexual “adventures” in your dorm when I’m not visiting you.
She told me about the threesome you had, soon after I left one weekend.
She told me about the guy you ****** the day before Valentines (The night I couldn’t reach your cellphone because you were “building snowmen”)
She also told me that when I called you Valentines morning, you were laying on top of him naked as we spoke on the phone.
I spent that Valentines Day with you, I spent that entire day expressing my love for you. I wanted to make sure you knew just how incredible you were to me.
What completely blows my mind, is not only could you sleep with so many people and not feel the least bit of guilt. But you could pretend to love me, just HOURS after ******* some random guy.
Now, 1 year later…
My self-esteem is totally shot. I have serious trust issues. I blame you for everything.
My old confidence is completely gone. A woman at a department store walked right up to me and tried to start a conversation the other day. I couldn’t think of a SINGLE thing to say to her.
The old me, would’ve had her number in a heartbeat. Even five minutes after the fact, I had a hundred things I could’ve said. But at that moment, I completely turned in on myself.
**** You. You took 4 of the most important years of my life.
Anonymous Chef Boyfriend on April 11th 2008 in Regret
Eleni said on 11 Apr 2008 at 5:39 am # Quote
Don’t let that slutty liar take one more second from you. You are allowing her abysmal treatment of you to define who you are. Don’t. She is the the one who behaved badly, not you. Let it all go and be kind to yourself. You are still giving her way too much power over your life. You deserve far better.
angel said on 12 Apr 2008 at 10:28 am # Quote
Sometimes I wish
you could step into my shoes
for just a little while –
to think what I think;
to see what I see;
to feel what I feel;
to understand the confusion,
the fear, the admiration, and
the friendship I feel towards you –
all at once.
If you were able to live
inside my mind, even for a moment,
you would see that my world is
filled with so many responsibilities;
yet so often my thoughts are of you.
You would see what joy
you’ve brought to my life.
You would see how much it means to me
to be able to smile,
to laugh, to feel good,
to feel free, like a child –
just because of you.
If you had the chance to take
the smallest glimpse inside of me,
you would see gratitude and respect –
respect not only for what
you are making of yourself,
but also for what you are
helping me to be.
And you would see how much
all of that means to me.
But the thing that would
strike you most –
if ever you had the chance to be me –
would be all the love I feel for you.
And once you had felt it,
you would always remember it,
and you would understand that,
although I am not always able
to express it or to explain
its depth or importance to me,
it is always there… inside of me.
-Poem by Tracey A. Gibbs
Someone! said on 12 Apr 2008 at 6:34 pm # Quote
You deserve better!
anonymous said on 13 Apr 2008 at 2:17 pm # Quote
Dude,
I was there man! all you said happened to me. I took 4 years to get over that same kind of girl! It takes one b*** to make a man ruthless in his relationships. fortunately I decided to open up to a wonderful lady through and through. result:She was faith ful , now I’m successful, married, second baby on the way and she pinches herself telling me how on earth she found such a hot and honest man. “nice guys” finish BEST even if they finish last!
Quetzalcoatl said on 14 Apr 2008 at 11:50 am # Quote
Man, don’t sweat it. You’ll be over it sooner or later. Everything will be all right. I went through the same 2 years ago, after an 11-year relationship. I still have to get over some issues about it, but I’m in a place now where 2 years ago I thought would never be at again. I’m at peace. Don’t give up, man. Don’t loose your hope. Everything will be all right. It’s not impossible.
The_eternal_sucker said on 14 Jul 2008 at 5:31 pm # Quote
I understand. I fell in love with someone who seemed the embodiment of the “good guy”. He was sweet and attentive and kind and caring.
I have long suffered from trust issues but slowly and surely he began to earn my trust. I allowed myself to think that he was safe and sweet and faithful. Until overnight he became distant and unavailable. However he still flirted with me every chance he got and kept my hopes up. Everyone thought he was going through a depression and was worried about him and so, I thought that that was all it was. I was by his side, checking up on him making sure he didn’t get too depressed. He kept saying he was fine and to not worry about him. That he would be ok. He never corrected me, but allowed me continue thinking he was sick.
As it turns out he was not depressed at all. I found out later he had begun seeing someone else behind my back. I was distraught. If good guys could do this to you, what about the “not so good” ones. I never even saw it coming. I allowed myself to trust and it blew up in my face.
I still can’t talk to anyone. Like you said, words fail me. It’s been a year and I can’t establish an emotional connection with anyone. I feel like using guys for my own purposes and leaving them. They don’t love me and never will, why even bother. I hope that the person that posted above is right. That one day it will all go away. But I don’t know. It doesn’t feel like it ever will.
Sherika (Jamaica) said on 28 Sep 2008 at 2:18 pm # Quote
“The Eternal-sucker” man ur story touched me..wat I would like u correct u about tho is that..that guy was NOT a good guy..he was PRETENDER..he decieved u and mislead u into believing that he was good.
So wat u ave to do is hold ur head up and not feel guilty because u did nothing wrong at all but love him. He will soon realise wat he lost and wat he did to u that same girl is gonna he even worse!! He may not come back to u but his conscience will EAT HIS BRAIN OUT!! So jus keep on living ur life and dont be afraid to give “other guys” a chance..with ur guard up ofcourse, b/c u never know who to trust..(I myself ave problem trusting people and I dont regret it at all). So please take my advice.
As for the subject her (the guy who wrote the article) U ARE one of the few GOOD GUYS around. Please dont let this girl allow ur heart to become cold and mean towards women. She was one of the BAD ONES…u didnt know…so dont beat urself up for that.
Atleast u found out..so jus please try and move on with ur life day by day. Even tho it wont be easy if u REALLY LOVED her. But PLEASE TRY!! ipromise u’ll find someone to sweep u off ur feet.