It’s all too much
Posted by Anonymous in Regret on Sep 24th, 2008 | 7 commentsIt’s all too much to bear.
I stay home with my children, one that has special needs.
Spouse lost job. No income. Doesn’t want me to work either.
I am angry ALL the time.
I think about a relationship from many years ago, frequently.
I scream at the children and just want to be alone.
I am expected to do it all.
I want to run away.
I go into the bathroom and wash my hands and frequently think about grabbing a razor instead.
I had 2 abortions as a teenager, huge regrets.
I don’t like the person i have become. My being feels ugly.
It’s all too much.
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Hey. everyone deserves a second chance. There is still hope. God forgives and gives out second chances. Never miss that.
I understand how you feel but you have to stay strong for your children. talk to your husband let him know that you want to help.you could probably get a better job then he had because your a woman.I had one abortion myself and i wish i never ever have done that so i pray to God take care my unborn child and to let my child know that i love him/her. talking to God will give closure on your abortions. Go out to the park with the family, write poems,play online games,sign up job application online,go for food stamp or public assistance until you and your husband get back on your feet basically find something to occupied your time and that could help your family. i know its hard because im a stay at home mom MYSELF and it gets frustrating.STAY STRONG!!! YOUR A SUPERWOMAN JUST LIKE ME
Ur still alive, be thankful for that. Things myt have gone off track for u but U still have all U need to make them better. The past isnt as important… The present is, and if u keep wasting that, u’ll end up in a more sorry future. u have kids, they’re your responsibility. no one can raise them as good as U can and no matter what kids always want to be proud of their folks so the razor isnt an option. As for the relationshp from the past… Its where it should be… in the past. trust me on that.
I wish U the best. Find the positives in Ur situation.
i undersatand how you feel, was a stay at home mum myself wth 2 children, but there is noting God cannot do, if you believe in him and in yourself, find a church or a christian gathering around you, so you can express how you feel, bottling up could have a bad effect on your family , they are all you got after God, i had to learn how to just kneel down and tell the Invisible but all Knowing Father (God) how i feel or felt, and always felt better by the time i got up. Try it, it works. Remeber your Children love you ,so does your husband.
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us. It takes a lot of courage to do that.
If your husband is not or does not want to find a job then go ahead and find a job. Let him know that since he wants to stay home then you expect the house clean, children taken care of, dinner cooked, etc., everything you had to do.
Hopefully he will find a job even if it is minimum wage it is something come in temporarily.
I wish you the best.
The beautiful thing about living is the ability to change. You can be whatever you want to be you just got to look at it differently. Trust me.
thanks for confirming my choices of remaining single and childless. i never wanted all the bs and agravation u r going thru. i luv the fact that i can be totally alone when i want to be and enjoy watching old movies,etc w/o any interruptions.