Idiot………

I don’t know what to say…3 yrs ago I knew that I cared enough about you to marry you. Yet I have lied to you to your face and have hurt you. The times I lied to your face, dispelling overwelming evidence that I cheated, used to sting a little bit before that point. This time was different, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and told you a partial truth to preserve our relationship. I have hurled 4 times, I cant eat, I cant sleep, and I cant stop thinking about how much I love you/cant live with out you. I’m sorry I slept with her, and the others. I’m even more sorry that I inadvertandtly embaressed you in front of other people with the form of evidence in your possesion. Being seperated for months at a time made me weak, and willing to sleep with all these other girls(double digit amount) for selfish pleasure needs. I feel like a scumbag, coward pussy ass bitch, for not being a man willing to tell the whole truth. You know I take marrital vows seriously, and would have/will never let this happen while we were married or engaged. I will never be this kind of man again.
I love her, havent cheated in years and hope she never finds this.