I love him, im sorry.

J, i’ve been thinking about all the things you tell me, the “i love you’s” the “i miss you’s” thats all bull. you just want someone to mess around with. a booty call or some s***. i have a boyfriend who really does love me and would really do anything for me. you’re just talk. i hate it how you have a girlfriend, and i hate it that you make me wanna kiss you. i also hate it that you make me smile. but what i hate the most is that you even exist! ugh, if i would’ve never met you i would be so happy right now, without worries and stuff, now i feel like crap for lying to my boyfriend. you suck! i know it was my decision or whatever but i just wish we weren’t introduced that Friday night. :(
with this, im saying… Goodbye.

if only i could REALLY say all of this.