RSSI Don’t Know Why I Did It
You told me that sex was for after marriage. End of story. There was never any question as to what age was appropriate and what age wasn’t. I knew inherently. Still, a part of me wanted to know what it was all about. A part of me decided to ignore you.
So I did it at 16. And it wasn’t great, but it wasn’t bad either. So I kept doing it, right there under your roof, and you never knew.
When I finally got around to admitting it to friends, I told them I had sex when I was 18. For some reason, 18 sounded better than 16. Was it because of your incessant claims that teenagers didn’t know any better that had actually impacted on me? I don’t know. I just knew 16 sounded awful. And for the first time, I wished I hadn’t had sex back then.
It’s been quite a few years now. I still lie about it. I lie about the first time. I lie about the frequency of times in that first year. I make myself sound like someone I’m actually not.
But you still don’t know a single thing. To you, I’m not tainted yet. I only wish it were that way.
Anonymous on October 17th 2007 in Regret
Sherika (Jamaica) said on 30 Sep 2008 at 9:55 am # Quote
The most important thing for u to do now is to ask God to forgive u for fornicating. He will.
U can also forget the past now and try to keep urself reserved for ur husband. U can abstain..until he comes along.
But remember to STOP lying..
I wish u all the best.