Lila Love has an affair

I think I am falling in love with a man other than my husband. I spent a week with this man in another state. My husband knew about it and was fine with it because he doesn’t think we do anything. You see they are friends and the man I go away with is ill, so i go to help him out on the trains and with his appointments. I know that most people would think its wrong that after ten years of marriage I should be doing this to my husband. However, I am tired of doing nothing with my life. I come home to be bored, sitting here, writting this I am alone. I had such a good time when I was with him. He wanted to be with me, love me, hold me, make love to me….I don’t get that at home. I want to forget about it, forget about how much I love him but as I sit here I am reminded of why I do. When I am home I feel like the maid, when I am with him I feel like a princess. I wish I wanted my husband more, but he gave up on talking to me about what bothers me a long time ago. He gets defensive when I bring up certain subjects and I am just tired of it all. I just want to run away from the life I am living and run off with my friend. Going home, after making love for a week with a man that truly wanted me; who made me feel beautiful felt so right. I know that if my husband and I split he would want me but I don’t want to leave my husband, he’s done nothing to deserve what I am doing; but I’m not going to stop, not when I feel this good. I know it’s wrong, but I finally feel valued and alive again!

Your Fame

you may be loved by millions and sell millions of records but i know the real you….your the worst abusive sh1t talking evil person and i will let the world know the truth and how u treat me ur brother

My Husband Says Its his Money

He won’t let me smoke cigarettes, because he says its his money and he told me to get a ******* job. Yet the only reason i don’t have a job is because I’m taking care of our 4 month daughter.. I sometimes just wish I could leave and never look back.

Love Stinks

I have been best friends with a guy for 7 years, and we got so close over the past year. I honestly think that I am in love with him; I think about him all the time, he is in all of my dreams, and whenever I am near him, I start getting all flirty and nervous and I always want to look good around him.

I want to tell him that I love him, but I don’t want to ruin our friendship, and since I have so few friends to begin with, I am really hesitant to tell him. But recently, due to the deathly illness of a few family members, I have started feeling like I am willing to risk it because life is so short and you could die at any moment.

I just dont know what to do because I know for sure that I am completely, irrevocably, totally in love with him.

Why can’t I decide?

I have been married for 4 years now and I am really confused.

My husband and I are totally different people. We have a son (3 and a half) and we have been fighting a lot since his birth. I can’t say that it is my husbands fault or mine, we are both in the wrong, but recently the fights started becoming physical. Either I hit first or he does, it doesn’t really matter who hits first it shouldn’t happen at all.
I have been thinking for almost a year now I want to get out of this marriage but every time I tell him he talks me out of it.
So, I am not happy with him, I don’t know if I will be happy without him, and what will happen with my son either way?

I can’t decide!!! I don’t have a clue as what to do!!! What future does my boy have with a mother who can’t decide what is best for his future? I feel terrible. Guilty. Most of all like a failure, one to myself, my husband and most of all to my son. Am I a horrible person for this?

Slowly killing myself

I don’t think I’m clinically depressed but I don’t particularly enjoy life and most days I feel indifferent about whether or not I live. I don’t get why people want to live forever – life is bloody hard!

I’m so much happier when I’m at work. I come home to a mother and sister with borderline personality disorders and a narcissistic brother. All I want is peace and quiet. All I want is a little bit of control over my life.

I can’t move out as I am a coward. Marriage would be the only way I could move out respectfully but who would want to marry a monster like me? So I stay at home and I binge eat junk food in secret. I now realise that subconciously I’m killing myself.

Why?

Recently I made a decision to let my disabled sis in law move in with my husband and I. I am taking her in b/c no one else wants her around because she is nothing but a lazy butt and a messy slob. I don’t want to see her homeless. But dear lord she drives me INSANE!!! She is an opinionated know it all. I used to do nothing but be upset and depressed because of her, and am now on meds just to deal with the day to day life with her. I feel like It could possibly be one of the worst mistakes I’ve made in a long time, I feel like I have to help b/c she is family but I honestly hate living with her. On a side note she is really great with her nephews, And she does watch them for me so I do try to tolerate her… but she does make it very hard. Also she is very immature, she’s always talking about Fan-fic…and writing fan-fic….she’s like 30 yrs old I think it’s high time she grows up. She makes life annoying!

I did it

I killed my step father. He was a drunk, pill popping sociopath who beat the hell out of my mom, me, my brother, and sister. He destroyed our lives and my mom was too scared for her life to do anything about it. It’s been 10 years and we’re all better off without you you sick ****

my life is ending

I’m afraid that I’m goin to end my own life. I’m 16 girl with no shoulder to cry on i may be depressed. My mom has many mental isssues so does my older bro. When you look at me i seem to be a normal happy teen. You ask me if I’m ok I’ll tell you I’m fine but everynight i cry myself to sleep. I’m naturally goofy which gives people a good excuse to yell at me I’m no bad kid never been in any serious trouble but they still feel the need to yell. I started cutting myself few months ago just lil baby cuts at first but they’ve gotten deeper and deeper I’m afraid ill go too deep. Ive thought about suicide many times before almost went through with it new years day everything has been getting worse my cousin just killed himself last week but nobody wonders how i feel don’t ask if I’m ok on top of all this I’m 2 things that my family hates gay and wiccan. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be the one to put an end to my life. Please help me

Don’t know what to think

My girlfriend goes back and forth on whether she loves me or not. When she’s depressed she says she doesn’t think she loves me and she doesn’t treat me well. I know that I shouldn’t be with someone who treats me the way she does but I can’t bring myself to leave. I always thought that I would be able to end a relationship if anyone ever hit me but I guess I was wrong.

I’m a terrible person

There is love in my home. Amplified by every laugh, every smile, every hug. Whispers of I love you right before bed, winks across the dinner table, passionate kisses, and love making. Yes, there is love in my home.

There is happiness in my home. Family movie night, family outings, photos of laughing and happy children. The portrait on our wall of us, our two children – all happy moments. We are happy.

And yet it is not enough. Selfish thoughts of the things I want, without thought of you or the children. Passion. I want passion and excitement, attention and affection.

And then there was YOU:
And then you appeared and I fell, had you risen to catch my heart I would have fallen into your arms. Thought provoking conversation between the two of us fueled my lust for you. Your slight smile, your laugh, your kindness. Was there really flirtation or was that in my mind? I had felt something that did not exist between the two of us – only hoped for. I imagined it all. Images of deep conversation, laughter between two lovers, laying in your arms, and no expectation of a happily ever after with you. With everything to lose and nothing more than guilt to gain. No, there was no more conversation, no more laughter for us, no warmth from your arms. All for the better I assume.

We are better off without knowing what could have been. So for the next little while I will begin to let go of a reality that never existed, only imagined.

Then I’ll start to breathe easier remembering that there is love in my home, there is happiness there too. And I will have passion, and I will have excitement, just not from you.

Hate Hate Hate

I hate my sister.
I hate my brother.
I hate my mother.
I hate my father.
I hate my stepmother.
I hate my stepfather.
I hate my stepsister.
I hate my stepbrother.
I hate my uncle.
I hate my cousins.
I hate my grandfather.
I hate my stepmother’s dog.

I love my aunts.
I love my grandmother.
I love two of my cousins.

I hate Justin Bieber, Rebecca Black, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Taylor Swift, Twilight, and any modern artist that makes pop or rap music.

I don’t even know if I still love my girlfriend.
I really want to kill myself sometimes. I really ******* do.