Annullment or divorce

Posted by in Spouse on Sep 12th, 2011 | 3 comments

My husband just walked into the room and told me he loved me. I reciprocated and told him the same. I don’t feel guilty that I was reading about annulments versus divorces and which would be better for me at that very moment.

I’m sorry for what i must do

Posted by in Regret on Sep 12th, 2011 | 19 comments

My boyfriend, who is the only man i had ever slept, with was taken to jail for a year last month. I was so upset and emotional i let slept with a close friend. I felt awful about it before during and after. Now i feel even worse because i am pregnant. I have never believed in abortion although i felt as if it was a woman’s right to choose. I just never thought i would be one of those women considering the option. I already have a 3 year old and i just cannot support another child. I wish to God i had made better choices but i do not see a way around this. I love my boyfriend so much and he’s been there for me and loved me unconditionally for the 6 years weve been together. I guess i was just really confused but i will never forgive myself and i will spend the rest of my life trying to find peace about what i am going to do.

More Conflicted Than Ever

Posted by in Regret on Sep 12th, 2011 | 23 comments

I’m such an idiot. I’m dating the most wonderful guy on earth who treats me like a queen, and I adore him, but last night I slept with a guy I’ve only known for a week. I also am still madly in love with my best friend, no matter how often I tell myself I’ve begun to get over him, something happens to remind me of how much I miss him and still love him. But what’s truly torturing me is having cheated on this amazing guy I’m currently with, because he doesn’t deserve it and I’m honestly not that kind of girl. I don’t even know what I was thinking!! I didn’t want it to happen, but somehow I’ve found myself in this situation the morning after anyway. But I don’t want to give up my sweet, sweet boyfriend either because he’s the greatest prospect I’ve had since my best friend. I made a HORRIBLE mistake last night. What have I done? This isn’t like me at all and there’s no one I can tell… What do I do?

My sister

Posted by in Family on Sep 11th, 2011 | 14 comments

I think my sister’s daughter is really just not cute at all. I feel bad about it. I do love my niece and i know it’s not her fault but i just think she is a peculiar looking little girl.

I eat chocolate in secret to avoid lectures

Posted by in Family on Sep 11th, 2011 | 5 comments

Because I can’t stand my mother lecturing about my waistline (and I’m in my 20′s!) I eat chocolate in my room in secret, but because I have to wait for an oppertune moment to throw away the wrappers it piles up in my drawers, that’s why I don’t like her specifically getting close to my things or being in my room, just in case she finds the wrappers and thinks I’m some sort of binging food-lusting maniac, even though I could have months worth of chocolate and wrappers. I have a few pounds too many but I’m not obese or anything and I eat healthily otherwise, I just don’t want every single chocolate-moment to be marred with: “IT’S NOT GOOD FOR YOU”

Skin and Bones

Posted by in Confused on Sep 10th, 2011 | 3 comments

I want to be skin and bones. I hate the way I look right now, after a pregnancy…I want to go back to my old ways but seeing that sweet baby boy stops me. I feel so torn…

Getting out of all my relationships

Posted by in Alone on Aug 29th, 2011 | 17 comments

I’m 24 and i’ve been with my girlfriend for 6 years now. We fight all the time about money, marriage…the future etc. I can’t even stand being with her, its so awkward most of the time and we barely make love anymore. I watch a lot of porn and play video games to ease my stress. We don’t live together and she just quit college because she didn’t want to take her program anymore so now she is in major debt now working a minimum pay job while im working hard making stable money for the future. All she does is want to move forward when im telling her were not ready and she just wants to get married and have a house asap. I know she is not in it for the money and she is marriage material but its not the type of life i want to live right now. I’ve also got so many problems right now with my family at home. I don’t even say hi to my mom, dad, sisters just because they made it hard for me to live there. Parents pushed me through school and I finished college just to get them off my back. They always complain about me being a mess at home and I dont even have my own room for privacy I just live in the main floor with a room divider so that people walk in and out of just to get to the laundry/exit the house. I want to get out of this life and live alone……

Karma is a bitch

Posted by in Sex on Aug 29th, 2011 | 14 comments

My fiance slept with my friend behind my back. I hated her and wanted to beat the **** out of her. She was a 20 and a virgin and he took it. I forgive him. Now three years I am in bed with one of his friends, not because I wanted revenge, I was not even thinking that. He came to visit me and we had sex. We have hours of wild passionate sex. He is coming again tomorrow, I cant wait. karma is a real bitch! what goes around comes back!!!

Last NIght

Posted by in Sex on Aug 29th, 2011 | 5 comments

Last night I met you for the third time, I flirted with you again even though I know you have a girlfriend and everyone in the room knew her. You finally gave in and kissed me, which ultimately led to more. You wanted to have sex with me and so did I but I couldn’t do it. I wouldn’t want someone to do that to me, and I can’t do that to your girlfriend. You made me promise not to tell anybody, not even my best friend because she is dating your good friend. I need to talk about this with her… But I promised… I do not know what to do. Why did I do this in the first place and why do I feel so bad and yet just agreed to see you on Wednesday? Why do I do these things to myself?

Forever Alone

Posted by in Alone on Aug 29th, 2011 | 2 comments

I think everybody hates me and excludes me from everything. I think that they don’t put the effort in, truth is, I don’t put the effort into my friendships. It took losing everyone to finally realise this. I don’t want to feel like this anymore, and I’m too scared to ask for help even though I don’t want to be forever alone.

Thinking of cheating on him after he cheated

Posted by in Confused on Aug 29th, 2011 | 8 comments

He confessed 3 months ago that he cheated on me with his co-worker at the beginning of May 2010 and told me that he regret it very much and will never do it again. We’ve been together for 2 years and for 1 year we were together he cheated. Last year we had a rough year and I confessed to my mother that I was thinking of cheating on him because he thinks I’m not enough for him and was very tired of him criticizing me all the time, yet I couln’t break the relationship because we are planning to get married and both of our parents are already preparing the wedding. However, my mom told me to not do that and to be patience. She said maybe in the future he’ll grow up and realise my value. So from my mom advice I didn’t cheat on him and kept working on the relationship. In September 2010 our relationship was great and he has changed, he cared more. However, that last 3 months he finally confessed to me that he cheated and felt guilty. He couldn’t keep his secret anymore to himself because the girl he cheated with wanted a proper relationship with him and he didn’t want it. So the girl kept threatening to tell me that they had affair together, so I will break up with him. To avoid that, he chose to hear the bad news from his mouth.
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I was born this way

Posted by in Love on Aug 26th, 2011 | 16 comments

No one knows except a select few that i am a lesbian. i’ve been dating my gf for almost 6 years and no one knows. I feel so trapped when im around family and friends, especially since they can talk about their girlfriends and boyfriends openly because they’re straight and thats acceptable in today’s society. I can’t come out because im still living at home and i live in the bible belt so i’d be ostracized because im in love. Im so afraid of my mom finding out because she’s the only family i have left that cares. Im afraid of her being disappointed in me and kicking me out. But no matter what happens I love my girlfriend and i have the most amazing friends. I know i’ll be alright in the aftermath of whatever i choose to do and no matter what I was born to survive.

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