Why don’t I feel guilty?
Posted by jjfemme in Love on Nov 26th, 2010 | 6 commentsI’ve been carrying on a flirtatious relationship with an ex-boyfriend that finally resulted in us having the most amazing sex I’ve had in a really long time.
My boyfriend of 5 years has no idea.
We’ve had conversations about scenarios like this before and he’s said that he doesn’t want to know unless I’m leaving him. So, I’m keeping it to myself.
The weird part though is that I feel absolutely no guilt whatsoever. I’ve never done this before and am usually an honest person. I’m completely baffled about why I’m not feeling a shred of guilt.
Clearly I’ve justified this in my head somehow, but I really don’t understand how. I know it’s wrong and that I should feel terrible. But I don’t.
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Wow, this is basically the exact same confession that I just sent in. I also do not feel guilt. I think the best way to approach this sort of situation in terms of life just being complex.
Don’t overthink it, and don’t feel guilty about not feeling guilty. Just enjoy life.
Well, maybe it’s time to break it of with your cuurent boyfriend, and hook back up with your ex. If your ex makes you feel good, then just go with that. Good luck. : )
In the book “Notes on a Scandal” the main character talks about having an affair. She says it’s like having a donut when you know it’s going straight to your thighs or another drink when you know it will give you a hangover. She says something like, “You keep saying, ‘No! No! No!’ until you finally say, ‘Oh bugger it. Yes.’”
If you are going to keep up sleeping with the ex, then break it off with the current bf. It’s just not fair to him to keep going behind his back. If it was a one-time thing and you aren’t going to cheat again (with anyone) then just keep quiet and move on.
Well what a suprise. Your just another TV, Internet, Hollywood Morally Degenerate Girl.
It’s call not having a conscious.
I hope you never have a responsible job. I would hate for you to have any measure of control over anyone.
Thanks for the titillating story.
Thanks all! No more hook-ups with the ex, but BettyLu, I think you’re right — the “Notes on a Scandal” book is pretty spot-on in terms of what I’ve been feeling.
Don, you’re welcome for the titillating story! By the way, the word is “conscience” not “conscious”; “you’re” not “your”; and most of the words in your second sentence shouldn’t be capitalized.
And yes, I actually do have a pretty influential job. If you’re going to pass judgment, please learn to do so with proper spelling and grammar. Your poor writing skills are contributing to the degeneration of society!
Thats because cheating on your boyfriend with your ex, has justified who you truly are in your heart of hearts. Your ok with it because the real you was expressed and your content with being that type of person. Unless your boyfriend cheated on you w/o you knowing, I think you just broke out into the person you should be disgusted for being but your ok with that disgust.