Things I Could Never Say to your Face

My Steel Dragon,

-When you walk out the door to go to work every day at 6 am, I cry on the inside. And when I cannot hold any more in, a single tear sheds and the rest begin to follow.

-When you’re sleep and you snore so horribly, and it’s keeping me awake, I take it as a sign you’re alive and I can sleep again.

-When you’re asleep and you’re too quiet, I stop breathing so that I can clearly see if you are.

-Each time you leave the house and I’m left alone, I fear that the smile you give me when you leave will be the last I get to see it.

-I post up statuses on Facebook as soon as you leave, so it’s a lot easier for me to count the hours until you get back home to me.

-Now that I’m pregnant and we’re planning all the baby stuff, I feel like there is a part of you inside me, and as it grows, so does our love.

-When you’re asleep and I’m out doing those late night laundry loads because you need your suit cleaned for work the next morning, before I put the clothes in the washer I take the last work shirt that still smells of your cologne and hug it until I cry.

-I still look at you the same way I did when we first met and I still think the exact same thought when I first saw you.

-I’ve made hundreds of songs and poems for you but never wrote them down. I’m scared of the smile you would show and the embarrassment that would cause me.

-I know you would laugh and probably not believe me if I were to tell you I love you more than my grandma’s cherry cheese cake….even if I got a whole pie to myself.

Happy Anniversary