The words i’ve never told you…
Posted by Anonymous in Love on Apr 24th, 2011 | 3 commentsI don’t really know where to start… I could pour my whole heart out but what’s the point?
I guess i will start with… you made me realize a huge part of me, that i have never even thought about taking into consideration. I’m gay. Once i realized this, I began to express my admiration for you. After this, we started to talk more and more and my feelings for you began to grow. I have never felt this way about another person. To me, everything was perfect. But what i didn’t know was that you had me on your own string, and whether you chose to pull it or not what up to you…
We tried to make things work and failed miserably at least four times. But through all the hurtful words and unnecessary fights, i still had these uncontrollable feelings for you. Even though i stayed up crying MANY nights, i still pressed on, acting like nothing was wrong. You pushed me to my highest points, made me feel things i have never felt before. And here i am, still wanting more. You have said things to me that made me want NOTHING to do with you. Made my guard go up faster then it ever has, built my walls up higher and higher. But at the end of the day, i was always the one apologizing even though it wasn’t my mistake to begin with.
We talked for 8 months, and even though we went through many rough patches, i still decide to stay here. Waiting for you. Because there is something you don’t know… you are EVERYTHING to me. I would do anything for you. I can never get you out of my head. And i don’t act the way i do because i like you. I act the way i do because over these rough 8 months…i have fallen in love with you. I love you… i just wish you felt the same way…
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look…i know its easy for me to say, but a lot of times, ESPECIALLY when people dont treat us well we hang on bec we think we love them, think were in love with them but really its a way to prove to ourselves that ‘were not that kind of person’ – not the kind of person who puts up with that kind of stuff from someone, not the kind of person who makes those types of poor decisions, not the type of person who…whatever. so we trick ourselves into hanging on, trying to fix things, trying to prove that everything you did you did and went through was for a reason. but often we find out, when we distance ourselves from the person or situation that thats all it was. you obviously have strong feelings for this person, you might even love them. but i promise you, give it some time and youll know you never wouldve been happy there. good luck
You’re caught in a cylce of violence.
Well, You are not alone, I have the exact problem.