The one I loss
Posted by WishIwas8again in Love on Apr 5th, 2008 | 4 commentsWhy did he have to be taken from me? I waited too long! I was secretly crazy about one of my best friends’ brother, since I was 8 years old and I am now 21. Me and her brother argued most of the time but in a playful way. He flirted with me every now and then and would always say “I know you want me”, I would say “boy please” (but inside screaming I want you more than you even know), The last day I seen him a live was on his sister’s birthday. We had a good time he asked me for my number, but because I was trying to save face in front of his sister and our friends, i didn’t give it to him(I wish I did). His mother even joked around with us saying” you see boy u need a woman like her”… and I needed a man like him. We witnessed each others growth from a distanced. He seen me grow from a little girl to a young woman. And I seen him grow from a little “Usher Raymond look-a-like” to a young man.
He got killed almost exactly a month later. Omg did I cry so hard.Its really just setting in today that he is gone and is never coming back:-(. I’m tearing up now. I wish I could show him how much I cared and wanted to be with him. I wish I would have given him my number and maybe he would have been with me that night instead of losing his life at the age of 24. Maybe we could have fell deeply love…even if it was just for a moment it would have been great. He could have been my heart… my nerve.I miss you. The love I never had. See you when it is all over.
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My heart broke for a second there when I read what you posted here! I am sorry for what had happened. Everything has a lot of what if’s in your head… on that very night. I am sure he could hear you and how much you mean to him. You were 8-years old to hold a special feelig for this guy and up to now, you are 21 he is still the person whom you want to share your love with… Hang in there….
Well….. Ppl like u are not born any more ,feel really sorry for u but may be that is what destiny is all about … It will be my pleasure if u can be my frnd , if want to thn just mail me on my id may be i can SHARE tht grief of urs….tc god bless…..
He is probably miserable because of you, why didn’t you just tell him ?
i was in a similar situation but only i was the guy, and my sister was jealous of how much she and i liked each other. so it never came to pass, as she got married. yet, to this day i can tell that she still likes me just as much as before. maybe ur friend was jealous too? if so, that could be why it never happened. to this day my sister and i are not close and dont talk. it seems true love has enemies and jealousies and in ur case, sometimes,tragedy. so sorry. i can relate and feel for u.