Love my wife, but crazy for another

I love my wife. She’s the best thing that’s happened to me and we have a good life.

But I’m crazy about another. I’m not trying to cheat, and thankfully she has a serious boyfriend, so I doubt she’d pursue anything with me anyway. But she’s fantastic, and I can’t breathe unless I hear from her. She left for a week and I was sad that she was gone, just felt incomplete. I enjoy spending time with her personally and professionally. She’s fun, smart, beautiful, caring, cute, nice to everyone, and we just click.

I don’t want to leave my wife, its not even an option in my mind. But I do wish I could spend one day free with this other girl. Just one day where I could take care of her, not even do anything sexual. Just enjoy each other’s company in private, and hold her close. We’re already close colleagues/friends. To just once feel that closeness with her in mind and body, forgetting about the outside world. Just once, that would be enough.