RSSi miss you..
first let me start by saying im a lesbian and i was trying to live a lie before, until i came out, but thats not what i want to talk about.
i met this girl like 2 years ago, we dated and we fell madly in love, i was the happiest person alive, when we were together i felt like nothing could go wrong and i felt like i could do anything. she has the most beautiful blue eyes and perfect blonde hair, she is just gorgeous.
after 3 months of dating, i was supposed to go on a trip to another country, to visit my moms family and stuff (my mom is the biggest homophobic, tho she didnt know about my relationship) when i was there, somehow my dads part of the family found out that i was dating a girl and my aunts started telling my mom, so i was stuck in another country while my mother was getting brain washed by my own family..
well my mother found out and decided that i wasnt gonna go back to the states, me and my gf continued our relationship for a few more months, i neve actually knew i could miss someone so much to the point ur heart hurts, just the urge to hug them and kiss them and just look into their eyes, its was unbearable.. my gf decided that we should take a break cause she wanted me there and it was too painful not to be with me.. we would still talk everyday on the phone and the computer, it didnt feel like we werent together anymore..
but not long ago she started dating, she has dated a few girls and i just get so jealous and i start bitching.. then she would tell me that she misses me and that she thinks of me when she was with any girl.. then it doesnt work out with them. but now she has found one and she is in a relationship with her.. when i saw her status i just wanted to break down and cry, it felt so horrible, my whole day was just weird and i couldnt take that off my head, just made my daily activities harder than ever.. today was the first day that we talk in weeks, i miss her terribly..
ive tried so hard to move on, tried dating, tried being with someone, just tried everything.. i dont know how to do it, i dont know what to do to forget her. its so scary to read and hear of people that cant forget their first true love..
im gonna be 20 by the end of the month and if wished would come true, id wish to see her one more time.
but ive wished so much and so hard that i stopped believing in them..
i would give anything to be able to hold her in my arms one more time, maybe thats what i need to finally realize that she is not mine anymore, even if her actual relationship is not going well and its only been 3 days
if anyone know what to do to forget someone, please tell me, cause i just dont know how
Anonymous on June 17th 2008 in Love
zico said on 19 Jun 2008 at 11:01 am # Quote
I’m a male but I care about lesbians and I show them respect..
Anyway I just wanted to tell u that ur story touched me..
Well I guess the only way to 4get a person is to find some1 else who can give u what that person used to do..I mean it’s the way it happens 4 me..
I wish u love..
JuniperV said on 21 Jun 2008 at 7:15 pm # Quote
Just reading your confession was heart wrenching.
You might need a little bit of time to be on your own and think- don’t jump straight back into the dating game just yet. Clear up your mind and figure out what is the most important thing in your life. If if is your (ex)girlfriend, and you do sound really in love with her, then I think that you should try to make it work between you too.
If that doesn’t work out, then keeping your distance from her may be for the best. You’ll find that it’s so much less painful when you don’t have to interact much with the person you are trying to get over.
Best of luck!
nothing said on 10 Jul 2008 at 4:07 am # Quote
i cried reading your story. i know exactly how it feels i felt the same. i am a lesbian too who broke up with Her and watched her with a new Love.. trust me , time heals all wounds.. u can never truly forget ure first love but the pain subsides with time