I love my stepfather

I have grown up spending summers with my dad and the rest of the year with my stepfather and mother. I call my stepfather Dad and feel closer to him than I do with my real dad who is a drunk and a loser. I know I call him dad and he acts like a dad but I don’t understand why I love him like a person loves someone they love, not like a dad. Sometimes I think I wish my mom would leave and then I would be with him and he would want me to be like his wife then. I’m 21 now and still live at home. He has been my dad since I was 8 and I love him so much, I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! when I hug him, I want to kiss him and go crazy but I don’t. I want to really touch him, but I don’t, I don’t feel closer to anyone but him! I want him to look at me like he loves me, but he looks at me like a dad would. Sometimes I hate my mom and am jealous of her. He understands me, no one understands me the way he does, I could be with him forever and be totally happy. I want to lean on him and watch movies every day. I want to bring him his coffee. I want to hear his ideas and have him read to me from his books of poetry. I want to be 10 again and have him teach me to swim, or take me to the father daughter dance again. I want him to look at me as a woman, not a daughter, and appreciate who I could be to him. I’m crazy assed in love with him!!!!!!!! I wear his sweatshirts and take his things so I can have something of his with me all the time. He says I’m beautiful, but the way a Dad would say it to his real daughter. Why can’t he have a moment of weakness and just love me back the same way!!!! WHY is it WRONG?!!!! I want him to burn for me! I feel like I could explode and just tell him everything I feel, would that ruin what we have? Would my mom hate me forever? I never want to move out, I never want to leave

85 Responses to “ “I love my stepfather”

  1. Kaydannys says:

    I don’t want to sound cruel but what it goes around comes around :(, you can feelings for anybody, big feelings, strong feelings, but if you avoid the situation, it goes away, I know that…

  2. mncube says:

    just tell him how you feel no use him not knowing ! try to understand his response be it positive or negative then take it from there.I have a step daughter and i know how you feel

  3. john wheeler says:

    I know how you feel When my step daughter came into my life at the age of 12 we did not get along at all she hated me then one weekend night when me and my wife were getting ready to walk out the door to go out she stopped me and told me to go back into my bedroom and sit down at the bath room counter she did not know it till then that I was a crossdresser and was going out to a club . she told me you are not going out looking like that and took off all my make up and started to re-do it when she was done she said ok now your ready to go she had done a GREAT job and I loved how it looked we started going out to the clubs together about 2 weeks later she loved it because I would go shopping and buy her sexy outfits and she would give me her advice and support we no longer hated each other as a matter a fact we became much closer and have a very close relationship not at all like a step daughter step dad type we have a special type of relationship we can and do tell each other everything and I mean EVERYTHING even flirt with each other .. One night when we went to the beach we played around a little and one the way home I brought up the fact that i would like to take it one step more having sex and she was open to it and would like to one day well after 6 years of us going out and all we did go out to a friends place when out to a club and on the way home we started playing and one thing lead to another and we ended up at a motel and had a GREAT time together we have got together and played around 4-5 times now and yes my wife does know we have a open marriage surprisingly that was the only way we were going to get along we are just as close now and never have regretted none of the things we have done and we still go out from time to time ..

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