I Don’t really hate you…

5 months ago you broke up with me and broke my heart. I have since then blocked you completely out of my life and spilled all your secrets. I build up these walls of hatred and make jokes to cover up that i still love you and how much it hurts…. I’ve cried every night… slit my wrists… stopped eating… ate to much…. hooked up with some guy i don’t even like… i love you and miss you so terribly it kills me… and maybe it will…. it hurts the most that you don’t care… you took everything from me. but i gave it willingly.