growing ever colder
Posted by peter in Love on Mar 16th, 2011 | 3 commentsI only ever cared about one girl. To say the least it didnt end well. When she broke up with me it hurt alot, and i all could think to say was, “you will regret this”. Some time later after her dating and predictably sleeping with several other guys. she wanted me back. I refused. I could not forgive her for the pain she had caused. Maybe i should have given her another chance, but i didnt think she deserved it. I grew angry and bitter for many years. But then i just decided to stop being angry. I still have bad memories of the experience. flashbacks if you will. Every girl i am involved with just brings about suspician in my mind. I am pretty sure every girl is just as selfish and confused. I doubt that anyone will stack up to my expectations. I just want the future to have someone for me that will love me more than i love them, so i am not hurt again. Either way, i am tired of being alone and will no longer be..
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Obviously you have issues you need to work on before you start another relationship. Also, wanting someone to love you more than you love them…selfish much?
I understand how you feel. I was in a seriouse relationship with a guy(I am a girl just to let you know) who constantly lied to me and cheated on me. I happened to have a child with him. Now I am in a different relationship with an amazing guy. We have been together for 3 years now and have a little one of our own and because of my horible selfish ex I have issues trusting my Boyfriend. He has never done anything to hurt me and he has been the greatest guy but I can’t put my gaurd down. I don’t know how to trust him. I am so afriad that he will end up hurting me just like my ex did. And I understand why you say you want someone to love you more than you love them. I have felt the same way. I am in counsling now trying to get over my trust issues. I suggest you try counsling. But if you do you need to really try. Go for at least 6 months. It will take time, but hopefully you can heal.
Im in the same situation as the girl writing (im also a girl) And we’ve been happier soon you’ll find someone you care about and not her. Give it time and it’ll heal over. Its really a wound in your heart as mine was and time it will heal.