Secret Confessions

Her name is Hanie
she is my cousin
she is 4 years older than me
i felt fall in her love after about a year that they moved to upper floor apartment
the first year just passed in sexual matters
u know i was just too young to know about love so as soon as saw her i was just thinking about her body rather than love but we didnt exprience s.e.x
in second year i was 15 and she was 19 i suddenly found my self amorist
but i did not tell her any word about my feeling.so i did whatever possible to show her my deepen feeling about her but somehow she didnt understand or maybe try to ignore me.that year and the next one passed the same i was just fuzzing in her love like a candel but didnt tell her any word the next year they(she and her family)moved to another apartment and we were in touch just by SMS and CHAT one day i made my deceision and told her that I LOVE YOU..but she just smiled and say i like you too but no LOVE
i just said that ok thats enough for me and now after a year of ignorance from her i asked her whats going on?what r you doing?
is there anything left that ti can do for you do?(because she didnt pay anymore attention to me and did her best to ignore me)she just told me:FORGOT ME!