Secret Confessions

She kicked me out over a year and a half ago for some guy she met online.

Everything reminds me of her. I’ve tried so hard to move on and find someone else, but christ– I can’t do it. I loved her so much. I had never even considered marriage until I met this girl. Even something as mindless as an advertisement reminds me of that one day, that one moment, something that occured between us. Every girl I’ve been with or slept with evokes a memory of her. I haven’t seen her in months and her face is still fresh in my mind– not that scowling, angered face that countered mine of horrified confusion, but that of her just-rare-enough smile, with that tinge of a blush.

I wonder sometimes, what she would think if she knew I still loved her this much.