Jealous
Posted by Anonymous in Jealousy on Dec 8th, 2009 | 2 commentsI am insanely jealous of a bunch of my friends. I was always the “good girl” in school. School came first, good grades came first. My other friends put their passions for art first, as I wish I could. I’ve been attending a great college, but I’m in a BS major that I love but will probably never use, and I’ll probably just go on to Library Science anyway. It’s really the only thing I truly know.
All of my friends have turned their love for art into something they’ll be able to make money off of. One has gotten into an excellent fashion program, the other learning how to be a video game designer.
I almost want to smack them when they talk about their schoolwork, about working on level design projects and fashion history, while I’m learning about OSHA and labor law. I feel like I’m being punished for not being a “slacker” in highschool. My one friend was failing a bunch of her classes and now she’s where I want to be, but I never developed those skills as well because I thought I’d never use them, not did I have the time…
WHY?
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This doesn’t seem fair to punish yourself for working hard. Just because you are focused in a certain area of academia, it doesn’t mean you can’t explore other options. I did a degree in science but personally feel I am much more suited to the arts, so in my spare time this is what I do and I work just as hard at it in the hope that maybe one day I could make a career out of it. The science I love too but it is a back up plan, a safety net.
Don’t ever think that just because you’re qualified in a certain area this closes doors for you – it doesn’t. It’s great to have such a good qualification as you have and it will open many doors for you. Life is too short – if you want a different career just go for it! Loads of my friends are doing jobs that are not at all related to what they studied. Don’t worry!
Believe in yourself. It has taken me until my 30s to believe in my creative projects enough to go for them. I was always academic as well and instead of seing artistic pursuits vs academia as mutually exclusive I’ve found a way to combine them in one career path so that they compliment each other. You;d be surprised if you really think about it. Maybe you can combine a career in law with art – artists/designers need legal support for royalties/commisions/contracts etc you know! Find ways to immerse yourself in the artistic scene you want to be in and use social networking both in real life and online. Don’t worry if you’re still quite young. Like I said, it has taken me a long time to even believe I can make my projects a reality because so many people tell us that we need to get a ‘real job’ when in truth all jobs are competitive and require talent and commitment. Follow your heart, look inside, be self aware. Learn to reach the clouds with your feet on the ground! It’ll take time to learn this but you’ll do it with lots of inner work! Anonymous gave great advice too. Hope we’ve helped you somewhat xxx