Swore it wouldn’t happen
Posted by sparklechimp in Hate on Dec 16th, 2010 | 5 commentsAfter dieting for years, losing more than 75 lbs and swearing that I would never live like that again, I have gotten back to almost 190. I’ve met a wonderful man who loves me for who I am, but I simply don’t feel like I deserve his love, and I think less of him for loving the fat slob that I am today.
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there are few people in the world, who can appreciate and truly love us, whatever the wight is.
Treasure what you’ve got.
I battle the opposite, I starve to be skinny. It comes down to self worth, regardless the addiction. There is only one King who can give us the acceptance we need. Give it all to Him! I am…..
I am going through that myself right now. I have a horible problem with trust and right now Its even worse due to the fact that I am the biggest I have ever been.
When me and my boyfriend got together I was 140, Today I am 173.
We did have a child together, that is how I gained all the weight, but now It has been 14 months since I had our daughter and I am heavier than I was when I gave birth.
I used to be big in highschool, and after I graduated I lost a bunch of weight. Anyways, now I am back to this horible ugly cow, and I can not see how he could posibly want me anymore. I know he loves me but I don’t see how he could posibly find me attractive anymore.
Thats why I am not trusting again even more so. If he were to cheat on me it would be now, because I am not longer the “skinny hottie” I was 3 years ago when we met. anywyas.
He is at work right now, will not be back for a few more days and I am going crazy thinking horible thoughts about what he is doing.
wow…. i know this isnt my post, but it reads like it came from my life!
I hear ya. I was 145 when I met my boyfriend and that was after I had lost around 30 lbs. I was so confident and hot. Now, after 4 years, I’m 184 lbs and feel disgusting. He still loves me, and finds me beautiful. He always wants to have sex and I just keep pushing him away. He thinks that he’s the problem, and that’s why we are down to once a week, but the truth is that I can’t believe he still finds me attractive. Why would he want to be with me when he has so much going on for him and I’m just a fat slob with this internal struggle.