I want to kill myself
Posted by hate in Hate on Aug 22nd, 2010 | 27 commentsI hate my husband who is cheating on me, I hate being a stay at home mother (( i dont hate my kids)) I hate myself for allowing this to happen. I hate my life.
I just want to die.
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You say you don’t hate your kids. Their love should be enough to make you strong. Think of them. Your soul of a mother is too beautiful to let it go to waste. Your children love you, and I bet so many people out there love you too. The world loves you. The world would never be the same if you were to die. Please, as a human being, a daughter, and a person who loves everyone, don’t kill yourself. You are way too precious.
i hagte my life. Ihave wated all thistime for my disfuncgtional husband to step up to plate. No way. No my kids are gorwn and it is justm e. Breast cance rsurvior. Ihate him. I swant to die. I am so angry that I have waited for northing. I hatem y husband.
I know this sounds wrong right now, but his cheating has nothing to do with you. Leave him & watch how fast things get better for you.
I know how bad it sucks to be decieved (really – I do). But do something about it.
I don’t mean kill yourself by the way. Not sure if that was clear. I mean divorce him.
I say if you wanna kill yourself then you would just get right on and do it. as you are writing about it, it tells me you don’t really wana do it! BUT if you really do wana kill yourself – then stop computing and do it!
dont be so mean. god said our curse was to desire and love and want just one and he doesnt see.
sorry but I can’t stand WEAK WOMEN!!! your letting down the females of the world, bloody kick him in to touch and stop being a *****!
Yeah, really. Kick the SOB out, keep your house and file for child support.. He’s only doing this to you because he knows he can!!
Have u done it yet? I bet not! O.m.g how weak, kick the twat out and move on now.
Dont listen to the other people who are making negative comments on here. You have to realize that its all his fault NO BODY deserves to be cheated on!!! that is so low on your husbands part. Realize that you are a well deserving human being. Have you thought of going to counselling??
**** Poppyseed. But her/his suggestion is right, leave him. I know the kind of man who cheats, they are far to common. He will never stop entirely, NEVER. The only choice you have is to leave or be walked on.
I felt the same as you, until I read this:
“The vision is the possibility that your best days are ahead.
The vision is the possibility that we’re more loved than we’ll ever know.
The vision is hope, and hope is real.
You are not alone, and this is not the end of your story.”
Hope it saves you like it saved me xx
TWLOHA
dont listen to those who call you weak .
Its not your fault you feel this way that is human emotion. Its not your fault its his , he messed up not you use this and use that pain to move forward and do somthing you wanna do . Dont stop beliving life stops here it has many surprises in store for you so let life happen
You think you have it bad. NOT. I have been married 33 years and my husband told me he never loved me. I can’t work, so I can’t very well tell him to get out. He informed me his money is HIS. And I will be dammed if I ask him for any. I quit going to the doctor, I am diabetic, because I cant pay the co-pay, and I have quit taking all of my prescriptions. Lost my best friend to cancer. Lost my favorite uncle the same week. My stove burned up eight years ago, still no new stove, my refrigerator quits sometimes and I have to throw all the food away. Then it works again. My kitchen floor is buckled because of water damage. My central heat and air went out in January and I cannot stand the heat at all. I imagine I will have a heat stroke this summer and I can say goodbye to my no good lying husband.
You got it bad?
Bye the way, I go to sleep every night praying that I will not wake up. As you can see, I am still here. I have no hopes, no dreams, no real security, no life. I wish it was legal to kill yourself. I would just mess it up and end up in a worse position than I am in now. NO HOPE.
Life SUCKS!!! And it ain’t gonna get any better.
I can’t work and can’t get on disability. I’m too young for SSI, almost but not yet, and too old to start over again.
I didn’t have the copay so I couldnt get refills. I have had tormenting back pain for years and the prescription I was on was the only thing that ever helped with it. I have diabetic neuropathy.
I went to the store yesterday and I honestly did not think I was going to make it back home because I felt so weak and was in so much pain.
I don’t have any top teeth and can’t get dentures. I have a few teeth on the bottom, but they are rotten, can’t get them taken care of.
So, who would want to be with me anyway? My mother was a very pretty woman at 77. I look like s–t. Couldn’t get another man if I wanted to. Of course I will never want another man just to have my heart ripped out again.
I want to hear from others who think they have it bad.
Im so sorry, im a young 23 yr old man and everything ive ever done wrong to a woman just ran out onto my face in the form of tears. I will be a better man, i promise for you
worsethanu:
“I wish it was legal to kill yourself.”
You are the dumbest person in the world.
Seriously, “worsethanu?” This is a discussion to help the poster. Not compare severity of pain and make her feel bad for saying anything about her life. Wow.
worsethanu you need to check into a mental health facility – your like really does suck-!
LOL. A mental health facility wouldn’t have me. They would probably throw me out.
If you are young, you should dump the sorry man. If you are old, it is not that easy. So do it while you still have alot of life ahead of you. Life can be a wonderous treasure if you are with people who love you. If you dont’ have poeple who love you, go out and find them.
Everything happens for a reason. He probably cheated on you because he wasnt receiving enough sexual stimulation. Now that he has been fulfilled he will want to be with you. Pamper him with pizza and cold beverages and all will be fixed. Never regret something that once made you smile.
once a cheater always a cheater. if she pampers him hell just know he can do it again to her then shell be me. I hurt myself but i cant help it it makes the pain stop. try try for you and those kids if you have em. they will remember how irritable and sad you were. you want them to remember a tough mom. So get tough!
juliet…why must we be okay with our husbands leaving us to go get sexually stimulated by some bimbo? i wish my boyfriend would try with me. i feel so ugly and disgusting i can’t do anything. my boyfriend of 7 years cheated on me with a senior in high school that i was always good friends with and ‘mentored’. they knew each other from her picking me up from the house. i stopped having sex with him for a little while because i was depressed, and he cheated on me for 2 months behind my back. knowing that i hung out with this girl every day, he still did that to me. i got a tattoo with her and i left an hour into it to go get coffee. she was mad that i was leaving, but i reassured her it wasn’t a big deal. to which she said ‘joe would have came with me’ .. i dont know what that’s supposed to mean, but i got the picture afterwards. she had a mix tape in her car that she would put on every time i got in. it was 100% dedicated to songs about cheating. i told her i thought all of her music was horrible and she made me listen to it. i still had no idea. i am the biggest fool i’ve ever met and i can’t look at myself in the mirror anymore. i feel so ugly and disgusting and fat and check this, i’m only 21. i’ve left this guy and gotten back with him in the past year, but either way my mind state doesn’t seem to change. i want to kill myself every single day. i don’t have a job or friends to distract me, and i don’t feel like i can handle either. i want to have a job, but i fail every interview because my self esteem is horrible and written all over everything i do. i can’t have friends because i don’t trust ANYONE after introducing that girl to my boyfriend. in addition to the long 2 month affair, my boyfriend also slept with another one of my friends. i know, he hates me and blatantly disrespects me. i just don’t understand.. i’m good in bed, my figure is nice, and i used to be a pretty girl. now i feel disgusting and don’t wanna leave the house to get groceries because i don’t want anyone to look at me. i’m so ashamed i want to die. that sick sick girl lives her life continuing to sleep with men for money and perks of ******* with their girlfriend’s heads and i just want to die every day. she won and i know it. i’ve given up on life and i feel bad for doing so because i’m so young. i can’t get over how horrible i feel and look. i will never be the same.
I want to kill myself but I have a son raise. Every morning I wake up in pain from being alone and the way I look. When your depressed its hard to put clothes on that look decent and its also hard to keep weight off. The thought of living 50 or more years scares me. I can’t even pray anymore.