I know it was last summer, but the memories still haunt me.
Posted by Phantom in Hate on Mar 6th, 2009 | 9 commentsI was sexually assaulted last summer.
The person was a friend of mind, a good friend. I had just been rejected by my ex and was crying, broken-hearted and in pain.
All I wanted to do was be comforted by someone.
All I wanted was a shoulder to cry on.
So I called you, hoping you would be there for me.
You live close by and told me to come over so we could talk about it.
I got on the next bus and was there in minutes.
There I was, knocking on your front door in tears.
You opened it and invited me in.
We went into your room and turned on some music, one of our favorite bands.
I had noticed your parents weren’t home but thought nothing of it.
Then you hugged heart broken little me, with tears streaming down my face.
Then, before I knew it, you were kissing me.
Your hands were all over me, and you were undressing me, and yourself.
I stood there in complete shock, and totally naked.
You pushed me onto the bed, and had your arms around me.
I tried to push you off of me, but you’re just too strong.
You started to try and touch me in a lower private area.
I started to come out of shock, and I slapped your hand away.
You said ow and continued to try and hold me down.
I managed to slip away from you, and I started to get dressed.
You bagged me to stay, but once I got dressed, I ran out of your house and began to walk into town, hoping to catch a bus.
Even though all of this happened in a matter of short minutes, I still have nightmares about it all.
I told my mom about what had happened two months after.
My mom talked with yours, and all I asked was that you stayed away from me and never contacted me ever again.
You agreed and we haven’t talked since.
Why do the nightmares still haunt me like this? *Sigh*
I don’t want to go to a therapist, and I don’t really trust them at all, but I think it could help.
What should I do??
9 Responses to “ “I know it was last summer, but the memories still haunt me.”
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get as much support as you can. Don’t feel ashamed, you are not to blame. Go to a womens health centre, there are counsellors there. You have to trust someone. You need to step forward, and do this so that you can get help, finally peace of mind…and eventually move on with your life. It starts with you. Be brave and it will work out.
sweetie, the best thing to do is to see a therapist. find one you trust and they will help you out. everything will be better. just one small step at a time
He begged you to stay, and you still narc’d him out to his MOM?! Wow, I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s pretty upset about that and not really worrying about your “agreement.” If he gets a chance he will hurt you.
Take comfort in knowing that should you be in a similar situation in future you will not freeze again and know what to do without thinking about it.
I don’t think he meant to be mallicous or anything, I think he’s young and was simply confused and misinterpreted your openness and emotional surrender for sexual interest.
Be grateful for your experience and forgive him and more importantly forgive yourself.
Smile, laugh, be happy, and just look back at the situation for what it was – an awkward misunderstanding between two former good friends. You’ll see in a no time it’ll just be a distand memory that helped you grow into a more mature woman.
Go see a therapist, the first one you see may not be the right one, it is the same with doctors but eventually you will find someone who will understand and can help you.
Know there is always support, even from absolute strangers like us.
You’re nothing but a whore who wants to pretend to be the victims that you see on TV. Don’t give me the bullshit about you “were in shock” and couldn’t stop a guy from undressing you while you were going at it with him. You stopped him at the last minute and then decided to play the victim for the attention.
Don’t listen to this twit, or anyone else who talks like this. Get some help.
that might be the case, I was acused by a girl after the fact because she regreted having sex with me. I have witnesses that heard her say “**** me hard” she just regreted it becuase she cheated on her boyfreind.
I have also been sexualy asaulted.
but i think it was more of averted unwanted sexualy advance.
Either way he sounds like he waxs just trying to take advantage of you.
go talk to a school concellor.
It’s not wrong to want to have a shoulder to cry on. You just had something bad happened to you, you should be getting all the support you can.