I Hate Myself
Posted by Anonymous in Hate on Dec 31st, 2008 | 9 commentsi have been in a relationship with an asshole for almost 3 years. He is always hot and cold with me, abusive one minute and overly romantic the next. but i stay with him because i lack the confidence and the motivation to find someone better. plus we have great sexual chemistry. i fear in twenty years i’ll be married to him with kids and hate my life, but i can’t ever seem to end it now.
i hate myself for this but usually try to spin the anger toward him.
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so basicly you are bit lazy, eh?
if you dislike him so much you should just break it off with him. three years is a lot but is a waste of time (for both of you)if you stay. you should find someone who loves you and cares for you. lack of motivation? just break it off already. don’t let your relationship be based on sex. give him what he deserves and dump him
just dump him its really not a bigie and seriously u dont wanna end up misarbale for the rest of ur life
LOL, at least she can define the problem – he’s an *******. People don’t break up some times because it seems safer. They think, “Sure, he’s an *******, but he’s my *******.” They’re afraid of being alone, that he might be the best she can do, etc.
But having the fear already that she may hate her life in twenty years with the guy, that should be a big indicator to her to try for someone better.
oh you sound JUST LIKE ME! Sonething’s going to happen that will make you see you no longer need to be in that situation. I’m “lazy” too…I’m waiting for that day..I tell myself give me the reason to leave because I dont want to leave without saying I gave it my 110% before I walked out that door…good luck
sounds like he might be bipolar. i have been in the same situation before. we had fantastic sex we sometimes had a really good time together. but most of the time he treated me like shit because he felt like shit, and he took everything out on me, from mold growing in our bathroom, (yeah, somehow that was all my fault..) to him gaining weight! (because i didnt cook good meals for him enough.)
i still love him and probably would still be with him if i hadnt gotten invested in grad school. so my advice: dont focus all of your energy on him. find something that you love. if he tries to keep you from doing it, tell him that its important to you. if he doesnt get it, then leave.
get out while u still can, before u get pregnant and really get stuck with him, do u know how many fish are in the sea? a shit load, you will find someone else u have chemistry with that doesnt beat the shit outta you
You sound like me. I am married 10(ish) years and two kids, my husband is an *******. He is very abusive. He has an anger problem, he refuses to hold a steady job, help with the kids or around the house for that matter. Now that i have let this and so many other issues slide for so long, he wont change, he doesnt beleive that i will leave him and quite frankly I dont believe i will ever leave him either. After this long i feel afraid to go back into the world. My body has changed and that makes me feel like no one will love me or be attracted to me like he is. 3 years honey, leave him NOW dont wait 10 years like I did. You will regret it. It will get worse. Abuse is abuse and it doesnt get better, people dont change. Leave now– you can get good sex anywhere but you can never get the wasted years back believe me.
Uggh… that sounds just like what I went through. Wit the three years and all. He was just like that, as well as a compulsive liar. I hated it, but I was too scared of being alone that I couldn’t leave him.
But I finally did, and now I’m with someone else. It’s hard, but you really should end it or else you’ll just be miserabl for the rest of your life.