I hate
Posted by Anonymous in Hate on Dec 4th, 2010 | 4 commentsI hate myself. I fear I have a personality disorder and nobody will ever truly love me because I act so outrageous when I get upset. My boyfriend just broke up with me because of it. I hide it in front of my friends and nobody in my family likes me. I go to therapy and it doesn’t help. I’m going to be a cat lady and when I die nobody will notice and my cats will end up eating me. I’m still young enough to change but it’s so hard. I just want it to stop.
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They have pills for that. Sounds like you might be bi-polar.
If you’re willing to work at it, therapy does help (provided that you have a good, quality therapist) There are skills that you can use to manage your moods and emotions. I don’t say this lightly, I’m in the same boat as you. I’ve driven people out of my life and suffer from multiple mental illnesses. Take heart, those of us with these disorders are intelligent, creative and sensitive and we CAN get better and lead productive lives if we’re motivated to change and eventually help others in the same situation!
How old are you and have you seen a psychiatrist?
If you are borderline, Dialectical Behavior Therapy has worked well for many people. It was invented by Marsha Linehan of the University of Washington, and is considered the gold standard for borderline treatment.