Hate

I dislike most people. I can’t help it. I’m an introvert with depression and suicidal thoughts. I have a few friends sure but I can’t keep romantic relationships. I don’t put in the effort needed for them because I assume everyone will leave me anyway or abuse me. I distrust most everyone because of my parents. I think I’m going to die alone and I know its my fault. I don’t know how to change it.

5 thoughts on “Hate

  1. I’m schizophrenic. Are you schizophrenic? I hear voices say I’m UGLY and I deteriorate daily. I’m in a homeless shelter. I’m too old for this shit. I have a son who grew up with a schizophrenic parent with me. I have NOTHING. Do you have something? I have NOTHING. No car. No money. Not even clothes that fit. My hair fell out from stress of abuse. I have to cover my head or not go out. This is worse than death. I’m suicidal have been for 20 years and have tried. – You’re not me.
    I’m not belittling your hurt. Just maybe you feel a little better?

  2. Dear Friend,
    You have the power to change this by going to therapy and working through whatever challenges have landed you in your present predicament. Please speak with your doctor soon about how you’re feeling and ask him or her to refer you to a good therapist. Take care and please let us know how things turn out for you.

  3. I identify..anger, rejection, disappointment , abandonment!
    This is not the way it’s meant to be!
    Please don’t listen to the whispering lies… .There is one who will never leave or forsake( to turn the heart away) you . In this relationship you will find faithfulness, kindness, healing, deep deep healing and love. You will know breadth, depth, meaning and purpose in your life.
    His name is Jesus..call on him to take the pain and heal your heart …and he will.

  4. You have the power to change. It is inside of you. You just don’t know it but you do. Human beings are capable of change. Hate and anger is because of fear,resentment and bitterness. You had some or many bad experiences. You don’t have to forgot, but you have to forgive, not for others but for yourself. Holding on to anger and hate will do nothing for you but destroy you from the inside out. The best place to start would be by contacting a therapist (psychotherapist). You may need to contact you primary care physician or current doctor to get a referral for a psychotherapist. I believe you are suffering from some Post Traumatic Stress but not necessarily the disorder in itself. Please go to therapy, get out everyday. Push yourself to do things. It will be hard but you can do it. If you have to cry, cry and let it out. There is nothing wrong with having feelings.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published.