wishing it never happened
Posted by whorrified in Guilt on Jun 9th, 2010 | 4 commentsi had mind-blowing sex with my boyfriend’s best friend…to make matters worse his best friend’s wife is a good friend of mine. i am losing control, what we thought was a one-time deal is starting to become a habit. every time i am around him, i cant help but want him and salivate, allowing him to fondle me whenever no one is watching.i feel horrible and i know i am risking losing my boyfriend and my friends,i really want to stop.
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Well then…. STOP. It’s that easy. After you stop, things will get back to normal. Things got a little out of hand. Just STOP, if you really care about the people you love. Good Luck !
You HAVE to get away from him. If you can’t control yourself then make up reasons not to be near him. You are causing so much harm by betraying the people who are supposed to be the most important to you in the worst possible way. Think about what would happen if you got caught….you’d have nothing left but a pair of cheating nuts to fondle.
By doing what you’ve done you’ve turned yourself into the person that everyone prays they never have to deal with in their life. You are cheating on your boyfriend (1st betrayal) with his best friend (2nd betrayal) who is married (3rd betrayal) to a good friend of yours (4th betrayal)
That’s a pretty destructive thing to do to everyone including yourself. This kind of behavior is common among people who were abused/neglected in some way in the past which caused them to develop feelings of worthlessness/inadequacy so later on in life they subconsciously act in ways that will ruin the good things they have, since they learned at a young age that they are not worthy of being cared for properly. It is a coping mechanism used for self-protection. I.E. if you hurt someone else first, they can’t hurt you. Human psychology is fascinating. I was hurt when I was young which caused me to self-destruct in adulthood but I didn’t see the connection at first and insisted my past didn’t bother me. Finally my mind was ready to face the pain and I have since moved on to a much better life.
If that’s not a possibility then you are just being selfish and should change for the sake of the other people involved. Everyone makes mistakes, but hopefully you’ll realize that this is not the kind of person you want to be.
stop. it is that simple.