RSSTragic Tale of Life
I was raped two to three times a week from my seventh grade year to my freshman year in high school by someone I considered a grandfather figure. I’m now a senior in high school. To this day after everything, I can’t hate him. Yet at times I hate myself for letting it happen especially for as long as it did. I have flashbacks frequently, and I feel as if I don’t deserve to be happy (I don’t know if this is from the rape or not, but I assume it is).
I hate that I can’t hate him for what he did. He’s roaming free and carelessly, while I have to live with the pain and scars every single day for the rest of my life.
Anonymous on October 26th 2008 in Guilt
k said on 26 Oct 2008 at 8:47 pm # Quote
From the bottom of my heart, I hope one day you get the solace you need.
Britany said on 29 Oct 2008 at 4:54 am # Quote
Have you told someone and gone to the police aboutthis. That is what needs to happen!!! No one willl help you if you don’t help yourself!
inDubai said on 29 Oct 2008 at 11:44 am # Quote
Please go to the RAINN (Rape Abuse Incest National Network) website:
http://www.rainn.org/
under “Get Help” you can either get their toll-free hotline or you can go to their online help and try to speak to someone about this so you can get some of it off your chest and then get some very helpful advise from then.
inDubai said on 29 Oct 2008 at 11:46 am # Quote
I am sorry I forgot to add that I am so sorry this happened to you and NONE of it is your fault.
Anon said on 09 Nov 2008 at 5:27 am # Quote
First of all I want to remind you that it’s not your fault. You don’t have to be ashamed of telling somebody because being raped doesn’t mean that your a lesser person than anybody else. You have to be strong and try to make him take responsibility of his actions. You deserve to fight for yourself. Be strong and believe that you deserve better things in life and fight for it.
Girl who wrote this said on 09 Nov 2008 at 6:06 am # Quote
I forgot to add that when my mom found out about this, it stopped but she did nothing. She didn’t notify the police or anything. I hate her for it.
julia said on 10 Nov 2008 at 2:11 pm # Quote
that is terrible… go beyond your mothers authority and report it. it doesn’t matter that it was 3 years ago. it still happened and it hurt you. he needs to get what he deserves.
totally said on 12 Nov 2008 at 3:49 am # Quote
You may even love .. and this makes you even angrier at yourself..
You’ve been mind raped as well as body raped.
You deserve better..
Now..do you want to stay the victim your whole life or would you like to turn the jerk in..and reclaim yourself.
yes you can~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
yes you can
YOu can do it said on 14 Nov 2008 at 6:13 am # Quote
I have been told personally by rape victims that reporting their rapist is something they never regret. Even if the rapist isn’t convicted, everyone will always have doubts about him, and he will no longer be able to walk around care-free. So I urge you to go with someone to the police, and report this bastard.
I've been there said on 21 Nov 2008 at 12:09 pm # Quote
I am sorry to hear that this happened to you, no one deserves that. Please think of others he could hurt, like he has hurt you. What if he is currently doing this to someone else? Can you live not doing everything you can to stop him so that others do not have to go through this? I know it is hard, believe me, but you must stand up for yourself and protect others!
I wish you all the best and I have great faith in your ability to do this! Take care!
Breathtaker said on 24 Nov 2008 at 2:48 am # Quote
hate tis not always easy , yet what would it give you to hate him ?
what happened was horrific agreed , now you can choose to let it fester n eat you alive or to grow n win by showing him that you have taken back the control he once had
{ consider reporting him even if you dont hate him as am sure youd hate him to do the same to your lil sis or any other
Best Wishes Breathtaker
JustMe said on 18 Dec 2008 at 6:05 am # Quote
I’m so sorry to hear you went through this!
I, too, was sexually assaulted as a teenager. When I was 15 my godfather, who was 63, at the time, assaulted me while I was spending the night at his home.
I blamed myself for MONTHS and didn’t tell a soul until his harassment got to me and I snapped.
You need to know that it was not your fault in any way shape or form. He is and was the adult. He was in a position of authority and even though you may think you should have said no, it’s not that easy.
Be strong and try and get help.
Know that cases like this are never a one time thing. Chances are, he’s done this to many other girls and knows how to get away with it.
You need to stand up and take charge or your life and your body because no one else will do it for you. It will be hard but know that you are not only helping yourself but countless other girls in your position.
Be a role model!
I know that in my case, it’s been 3 years of suffering. The police have called me a liar too many time but I know that I need to keep strong as an example to others that they CAN beat this and they CAN make a difference in their own lives and the lives of other young victims.
Be strong my dear. You’re not alone and never will be!
My heart is with you!