sorry

i hurt the people i love, my husband and family and my first love and he’s family, i love my husband and kids, but i also had deep feelings for my first love, we got in touch and for me it was amazing he said i was he’s true love and i was in heaven untill he’s wife was on he’s id then it went bad we split up he ‘s wife chucked him out and he now hates me. its been nearly ayear but he still texts me. is this from hatred? im beside myself. as i dont know if she knows or it was him just wanting me gone but wanting me to feel guilty. i cant eat my health has plummeted and as you can see i cant sleep. ive said i cant take it and i want to confess to my husband but he says no, is he playing mind games. im really hurt, sick and in need of help. xx