I hate myself for this . . .
Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Apr 24th, 2011 | 8 commentsThis is the first time Ive even spoke about this dark and terrible secret outside of my own thoughts. When I was 15 I molested my younger 7 year old cousin. I secretly live in so much shame and so much regret it just paralyzes me when I think of it. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to admit it to anyone but this is the only way I know I can express my sorrow for the horrible act I’ve done. I feel like a fraction of a man and that there will be always an ounce of guilt left in my heart. I’ve prayed so many times and cried to god so many times for him to forgive me. I will regret that for the rest of my life and I am truly sorry!
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You should seek counseling. It would be terrible for you and your cousin to go through life without confronting this.
Have you ever told him that? Because it still torments him too, and you’re the only one that can even start to make it right.
I was molested not by a cousin but a family friend’s son. He made me and his own biological sister touch his penis. I cringe still and I am alomst thirty. My parents have no idea. Your a monster and the guilt you feel is valid.
You can never take back what you did, but you can strive everyday to be a better person, and to give more good to the world than pain. You may never be completely free of your guilt, but don’t think of it as a sentence to hold over your head, but a reminder to take every opportunity to do right.
You’re not the only person who’s done terrible things. Take some comfort in that if you can. I too was molested, and I too have done terrible things. You aren’t a monster – monsters hurt others and feel no guilt.
God can do ALL things brother. He has unconditional love. God loves you as much as he loves the most perfect person. Ask God to rid you of your guilt and he will. He holds no grudges. Ask for forgiveness and you SHALL be forgiven. Don’t go on throughout life feeling guilty, confess to the Lord, he will not disown you or turn down you pleads.
your a monster I hope you dwell on what you have done for the rest of your life.
you are a heartless unforgiving ass. The healing process starts when you decide to let go. you may never forget but forgiving is possible. To wish someone else eternal torment when it is obvious he is feeling guilty is nothing short of abusive itself.