I felt so bad about msyelf

I got into my first car accident today while driving to school. And it was my fault initially. Luckily, no one got hurt. I felt so bad about myself. My mom had work her ass off just to put me in school and everything. I’m a full time college students and got a job in school. But the check wasn’t that good since I could only work 10 hrs a week because of my heavy schedule. Because of the accident, my mom got to pay in order to fix the car or there wouldn’t anyway I could get to school.Plus, it going to cost a fortune to fix. I never did anything that could help her out except doing good in school. I felt so useless and guilty about myself. All I did was bringing troubles into her life. When she found out that i got into a car accident. she wasnt saying anything but walked away. I wanted to cry so much but tears didn’t come down. There was not anyone that I could honesty shared my feeling with. I know that people got worst problems in their life but i think i need to get positive, stay strong, things happen for a reason. but sometime i just want to know that reasons.