I Can’t See Myself

I thought about it for a long time, and I went to therapy for disorderly eating behavior. I’ve gone through so much, learning the best way to keep myself in the perfect image of what society thinks of as being beautiful. And after losing ten pounds, I looked in the mirror, and all I could see was how much fatter I was than before, but I kept looking at my ribs and just realizing that I could see them. I couldn’t before.

I’ll never see myself as beautiful. I can’t.

7 thoughts on “I Can’t See Myself

  1. I think that you’re beautiful!! You are an amazing person for trying to better yourself. And even though I don’t know you, I do know that you can overcome this. Be strong! Do things that make you feel happy, be around people that love you and you’ll see how unique you are (:

  2. I think you’re beautiful!! You are amazing in your own way. And even though I don’t know you I do know that you can overcome this. Be strong!

  3. Physical attractiveness is not beautiful at all. It’s fleeting, and one day it’ll be gone. Instead of trying to make yourself prettier, pick up a hobby or a sport. It will take your mind off things, and at the end of the day, you’ll feel better about yourself. Trust me, I’ve been there.

  4. are you saying that you are actually skinny? if so that is called body image dismorphia…common ….i bet you are beautiful. Let someone love you. It may help.What other option is there? You are special!

  5. I can see my ribs too. It’s not something I even really want, but that’s sort of how my body ended up when I lost a little weight. To be honest it makes me a bit uncomfortable. I worry that people will think it’s creepy.

    I am working on getting fit and being more healthy. If you’re going to think you’re ugly no matter how much weight you lose, there’s no point in losing weight. Try to be healthy. Health is attractive. Work out, gain muscle and get fit, because exercise makes you feel good about yourself. Eat to fuel your body and mind. Loving yourself takes time and even the most beautiful of people will look at themselves in the mirror sometimes and hate what they see.

    The beauty standard is stupid.

  6. You can. You’re beautiful. Everyone is. Just handle your disorder carefully and wisely. GET HELP from everyone you know. Don’t be ashamed to do so. You’re already realizing that you have a problem. Well, fix it. You can.

  7. You seem to have a terrible body self concept and perhaps low self esteem. Call and find out about getting an eating disorders therapist who can help you to stay healthy and learn to accept yourself. Take care and do it for yourself, you’re worth it!

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