I am a murderer
Posted by murderer in Guilt on Sep 20th, 2008 | 125 commentsYes, I committed a murder, and no one knows about it, they all thought it was an accident.
I held my 8 years old niece and I threw her from seventh floor, after I tried to abuse her, and she was going to tell my brother-her father-about it, the window was low so they thought she fell while playing.
I run to the bathroom after throwing her and I pretended to get out of it on hearing her screams.
I can’t bare it anymore, I thought many times about killing myself, but I am afraid to do it.
I think confessing will remove some of the load from my heart, but still I am a murderer.
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hey dummy keep ur mouth shut. this is how they got the kennedy cousin skakel admitting to a murder in drug rehab. i can see it now: murderer confesses online and appeals his conviction to the u.s. supreme court citing privacy and confidentialty laws. i stopped caring about male murderers getting caught for killing females when i saw that woman get away w blowing away her minister husband in tennessee. the women in the church rallied around her only because they both shared vaginas. sick of the anti male sexism and double standards in the judicial system. like the duke rape bitch who wasnt even prosecuted for false rape allegations cuz she had mental issues. so! let that be her defense then. so i hope u get away with it like the women do all the time.
are you seriously ******* kidding me?
so are you still molesting children or was she the only one? p.s. I think you should maybe through yourself off a tall building that would be poetic justice and may help give peace to your soul. I don’t mean that in a harsh way, I am just saying you may feel relief after you off yourself.
Why?
There are many answers.
But none of them is “right”.
I feel your compunction.
From now on, make “good” deeds.
You will feel easyer.
Do not tell anyone.
Nothing good will come from it.
In most difficult situations, the only thing that can restore a man is making others less desperate.
Help the poor.
Make “love”.
And you will be forgotten.
But, it wasn’t a woman you idiot, it was a child. He said he tried to abuse her what the **** do you think he meant? He wanted her like a woman.
Yes i do agree with you about the legal system the whit american mail is the bigest one that is discriminated person in the world today. But I CAN NOT condone the killing of a child!!!
if this is true you are sick !!! you deserve to die !turn yourself in or do yourself a favor and drive off a cliff !!!!
he is not a sick man.
we all have urges to do this.
we are imperfect spontaneous beings of evil.
it is to no shock that he did what he did.
i am similar too. i am sure many out there are in the same situation
we do not all have urges to do this!?! WTF?
what u are a freak!
yes many but each to there little world but whats the point they will never see
Yeah, this is… bad. Really really bad. You robbed that poor girl of her life. :/ It’s awful. But when you get angry at someone, do you think that hitting them might be morally wrong? There are some people that have problems with their anger, and let it control them.
It’s stupid to act like that isn’t natural, as if you are all above such people.
However, the fact that he could not control her anger enough to save a life, or at least keep herself from committing such a HORRIBLE crime is just wrong. You should turn yourself in. You really can’t escape the guilt.
Seriously man, I don’t know what to say.
don’t tell anyone.
Finally do the right thing and turn yourself in….thats the ONLY way you will have even a slight chance of peace.
You will get what is coming to you…if not in life, in death.
you feel remorse..that shows that you have some good in you. you have to put this situation right… the right thing to do is to confess, but it is understandable if you just can’t do it. pray for forgiveness every single day devote your life to charity work and helping others and let your neice know that you are very sorry.. do not commit suicide as suicide is a sin and even if you are not religious you will have commited two huge sins.. just try and put things right and i wish you the best x
the truth shall set you free.
that is horrible i think that you should turn urself in!!! NOW
Totally agree with Andrea.
sounds like you have an anger-management problem and fianlly snapped…not to justify what you did because its horrid. I know one thing through experience though, i hurt some very close friends by being on drugs and stealing from them, i could not live with myself until i confessed to them and they actually forgave me. WHAT IM SAYING IS THAT YOU MUST CONFESS WHAT YOU DID TO THE PEOPLE IT HURT THE MOST IF YOU EVER WANT TO FEEL ANY PEACE. YOU WILL ALSO GO TO JAIL BUT…YOU DID TAKE AN INOCENT LIFE. BE A REAL MAN NOW.
Totally agree.
You need to confess.
How is it fair that you have a life when you took the innocent life of a young child – and for simply wanting to tell of the disgusting acts you subjected her to?
I think your brother and his family deserve the truth! Do you still keep in touch with your brother? Get together at Christmas and Birthdays? You make me sick!
You should pay for taking that precious child’s life, so please do not kill yourself, you have a lot of pain and punishment to suffer yet on earth before spending eternity in hell.
tell and have peace :D
I think you should tell people even if everyone hates you – you will still feel better for doing this. It’s the right thing to do.
Coming from a 12 year old girl.
you mollested and killed a child you sick ****. what the hell is wrong with you? you post this on the web in hopes that people will feel sorry for you? i hope the tragic death of your niece by your own hands eats at you ever day, and every night when you close your eyes to sleep…i hope you see her poor little face. my advice to you: shoot yourself in the head you worthless piece of shit. people like YOU dont deserve to be alive!
There is no such thing as People like you it only exists in the observer state of a human being. There are only people, and we could of all done what he done given his situation, life influences and a trillion other factors.
It’s easy to judge when u only have an outcome.
Just because you don’t understand does not make it wrong.
Anything that happens on EARTH is natural and it should be treated as such.
For every action is a reaction.
Sometimes it leads to an explosion and sometimes it slowly bubbles away.
Not everyone had a choice to be who they are, that choice was stripped of them from an early age or a traumatic experience that sets of the Primitive Reptilian part of the brain often referred to as an ego!
This part of the brains sole purpose is to survive, But if the danger does not go away and the ego is not calmed and retreated Consequences of this action can result in things that can only be understood by a logical intelligent person who has both used and fed their ego.
End of!
FIN!
Last I checked, filth, child molesting and murdering little girls was a choice. Stop attempting to humanize people who do this or trying to make them seem “just like everyone else” when they’re not.
That could have been your daughter, or your sister, or you.
When you are sitting there debating suicide you need to think about this….. That poor little girl would have probably grown up to have a good husband and children of her own, she had a life, she was a human who hurts and breathes just like you. And you took that from her, you took her life. Can you imagine the pain she must have felt, even if only a brief second when she hit the ground? Can you imagine the pain of her mother and father, the pain of losing a child? You have stolen more then just a life. You stole a child, a future wife, a future mother, a grandchild. And you took away something that you can never give back no matter how sorry you think you are…. So when the guilt takes over you, if you have a soul that is make sure that when you kill yourself dont do it with a gun, you dont deserve to die that quickly….
What business is it of yours how they die? What business is it of yours whether they die or not? What does it solve? You’re simply imposing your own will, your own judgment, on someone else — and making nothing any better.
lol. i think you are a tad too invested in this.
????LOL???? WTF’s the go with that comment?
How can you be so blasé about a molestation and murder?
Shoe… other foot…. you know how it goes!!!
i know the guilt you feel, i understand how YOUr whole day is now filled With those fInal images pLaying over and over in frame by frame detaiL.
just know, that it doeS fade in time. yoU will neveR forget it, not eVen for a day. but you wIll eVentually only seE the image of her once or twice a day. thats about as good as it gets…..
be strong
I have to say that I think it’s extremely wrong that this post is still up here and I can only hope that the person(s) who own this page reported this to the police.
Did you?
im sorry if i sound cruel but you need to be in prison and just be stripped away from society and the rest of the world , or kill yourself .
Here’s what you do. You aquire a gun. You sit your brother down for a “chat” and hand him the gun. You then confess to him the TRUTH and let him decide your fate. He either calls the police or he does what I would do…put a .45 ACP through your head. Child killers don’t deserve to live.
Yeah, I kinda agree with this. If I were in that situation and had the courage, I’d tell my brother and hand him a gun myself. :|
It is sad that you killed your 8 year old niece. If my brother killed my daughter by throwing her from the 7th floor, I’d never forgive him. Whether you had anger management issues or are just that evil, I think you should feel terrible for it. I would never forgive you and I hope your brother doesn’t forgive you. As awful as what I’m saying, you do not deserve anything else from your brother or anybody but you do deserve to tell them what happened.
The person I admire the most in my life always says something. He says “Own your actions.”
In other words, Man up. You may feel like this situation is over, but it will never really be over until you Man up, take responsibility for the things that you have done, own your actions, and allow the truth to come out. Do it. Be an Adult. Be a man.
On a side note, I ABSOLUTELY agree with HaterWife.
I sincerely pray to God that either this person has the gumption to do what they need to do and own their actions, or that the owners of this website are wise enough to do what THEY need to do. Or both. Both would be good.
Whilst this could be true I think it’s a fake. Surely if he sexually abused her it would show up on the autopsy? Also I think this person is very sick to even joke about something like this.
This is one evil world.. If this is true U r sick as hell… If it isnt true u r still sick as hell.. and 9.5 times out of 10 ur going to HELL…PEACE out Idiot and to ALL the idiots that are telln u to keep quiet…Freakn psychos…
you are no different to any murderer, what is different however are your life influences, experiences, and a trillion other factors.
Accept the bad with the good.
Your selfishness is what is wrong with our species.
When god gave his ten commandments he did not put them in order from good to bad every sin is counted as a sin towards god yes confession could help but what these people that say you are a bad person don’t realise is that you are already living in hell everyday worrying about someone finding out affraid to do anything for fear you have been discovered everytrip home feels like such a long trip because you never know of someone is waiting for you on the other side of that door. Now I have never killed or anything but I studied to be a psychologist these people like the one that originally posted live in a hell that no one else here can ever imagine these people reach a point where they can’t decide if its better to confess and hope for relief while having everyone deny you familly leave you and person you ever meeet in your future and being hated by selfish people like the people here who say that you are bad. Living in your own hell and being tormented every second of ever year or killing yourself you can’t decide if your familly will be more hurt over your death or fiding out what really happened. This is a hell that most people can never come close to feeling and I hope they never due I hope you continue to make people feel like crap for the rest of yalls lives so you won’t be the person in the other shoes because no one should ever feel this pain. But remember if you have ever stole looked at a woman or man with even the slightest bit of lust wanted something someone else had God sees you the same way as this original poster. If you want to give that image of people like this then you are also giving yourself that same image
I seriously think you ought to write a letter stating your actions, and then kill yourself. There’s no coming back from this one.
yeah I thought he should do this too..
You ******* sick bitch, why the hell would you do that?! If you were not such a spine-less coward, you would confess to your brother about what you did!
Sick twisted freak, wouldnt help if you did confess you will still suffer now, your soul is condemned!
Keep living in your fantasy.
People need to learn to forgive and forget. The lord sayeth, he who is without sin, cast the first stone.
If he is sorry what he did, he should be forgiven. People can change.
Your kidding arent you. Thats the problem with these rweligious types they think that people can commit an offence then confess there sins and all is forgiven until the next time. Your just as bad as this sicko
Why be as simple minded as he is.
Broaden your horizon to see a clearer picture.
He’s lying, just after the shock effect from everyone, no one could be that sick and tell online
Mr. Murderer since you are allowing yourself, for once in your life, a moment to be in complete brutal honesty then you should hear an honest reply. I’m atheist so I don’t believe you are going to hell but what you did was very wrong. I feel your punishment is to live a life in regret of what you did with endless sleepless nights, self loathing, and self hatred. A lifetime of this will perhaps give you what you deserve. If you kill yourself you take the easy way out.
you have two options… well three actually
1. confess
2. keep it to yourself
3. kill yourself.
those are your only options.
i suggest you keep it to yourself. you cant undo it. if you believe in afterlife then you will have to answer for it. if not then nothing matters anyway.
I did 11yrs. in prison from 2000 to 2011. Regardless of what u do, karma is gonna have its way with u. In prison not only will u have to do ur time, but people like u are brutality beaten & raped repeatedly all the time.& on the outside, you’ll probably suffer from some fatal disease & die an horrible death. Either way you’re gonna have to live w/ what you’ve done & die bc of it. You’re gonna get what u deserve!
thats bad! maybe you will be send to hell if i had been on your part it would be difficult to turn myself in i would enjoy my life to the full as i know after this life where i am going to go is HELL god bless you
The parents need to know! they need to know that it wasn’t something they did or could have prevented.
Confess to a priest even if you aren’t religious. I think you should start by telling someone. Then move your way onto eventually (hopefully sooner than later) The police. Don’t tell your brother as he might kill you and destroy his life even more so.
Don’t worry. Your brother will find out when shit breaks loose. If you want to die that’s easy. Let your inmates know why you are there.
April 5, 2011 at 9:15 pm Listen dude… Im gonna tell you this First of all we all do bad shit as well as good and to be totally honest ur not a bad guy, just made a bad decision and things for you turned out shit. If this makes you feel better we all do what u do except you were the unlucky one whereby the situation turned utter shit. If I were you and this was really getting to you heres what i’d do: -Run off to the middle of no where give urself some space and time to think. Don’t listen to anyone and keep telling urself to **** the world and priorities gaining mental strength. U WILL NEVER GET OVER IT, JUST DONT DENY WHAT U DID BECAUSE IT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL WORSE… BUT GAIN MENTAL CONTROL. -Slowly ease your way up in life, AND NEVER GIVE UP ON URSELF.
You are going to have to answer to God one day for what you have done.
Jump off the 7th story of a building. What you did was evil and it’s only a matter of time before that manifests into a breaking point. If your family finds out you will ruin them and their name. It will resurface a horrible event that happened to them. I feel horrible telling you this but you killed a little girl, a niece, a child. Justice needs to prevail.
give up on yourself. you are twisted. oh my god you are sick and should kill yourself. today. do it today.
You other people telling him he should kill himself are just as worse as him. I posted a comment a few months ago saying I don’t think it’s true, because if it was it would have shown up on the autopsy. Of course I could be wrong. But even if it is a joke it’s still sick and disgusting.
Turn youself in, you took a 8 years old girl life away, you have no right to live yours. Go to jail, rot in jail and burn in hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Considering there are far too many people on Earth I have no objection to someone killing people, but try to have a good reason to do it (you know they are a pedophile or a rapist or a drug manufacturer or something terrible). Killing people needs to be done. But, by principle you fall into the category of people who need to go. The principle or simple murder being justified is only justified after the person is mature and has proven themselves inept and evil or having no worth. You have taken the life of an innocent. If the people I notify don’t track you down, I sincerely hope you kill yourself.
Oh yeah. Killing an 8 year old is a good way to get rid of people.
If you think there are too many people. Do yourself and the world a favor and kill yourself =)
If it was MY child you killed, I’d kill YOU with my bare hands. You better hope the parents of this dead girl do not find out you did it. You sick bastard. OFF yourself.
You should tell your brother what you did and he’d probably kill you so you won’t need to worry about killing yourself
You are a discusting person. Die.
Bitch got some crazy ass problems, your a HUMAN, why would you want to kill another? ****** up, why would you want to harm another being?
3 words.
Rot in hell
I can’t believe people are trying to justify this totally unforgivable act. Of course you feel guilt, you performed the two most morally disgraceful acts a human can commit, abuse then murder of a child.
Since there is no magical law enforcer beyond the stars, it is upto humans to punish and lay laws down for acts like this. You have to take responsibility and go to prison, you do not deserve your liberty and freedom.
I always find it funny when people try to preach about how normal and good they are. The fact is, Society creates people like this. PERIOD!!! We live in a world where some people are born rich and will never know the pain of hunger. Some our born so poor they never no the satisfaction of any meal at all. It is human nature to want everything you can touch, but reality is that most people will never even go on a real vacation. Societies bias turns people into monsters. Monsters do not create Society!
So… You tried to abuse your eight year old niece and then killed her, and the only thing you’re worrying about is your own state of mind? What about that little girl? What about the last memory she’ll ever have had was of you trying to abuse her and throwing her off a balcony? What about the life you almost ruined then, when you couldn’t, distinguished it? What about the parents? Don’t you think they have a right to know?
You are a monster. You’ve taken one life and wrecked at least two, and all you can ******* think about is how to make yourself feel better?
I think most people can agree what you did was sick and awful. Unfortunately, what happened has already passed. You cannot take back the life you took.
I am not sure how old you were when this happened, but I can imagine this happening when very young…
I would suggest instead of killing yourself, try doing something good. You can’t take back the past, but you can become a better person for the future.
Good luck.
I will not yell at you for what you have done or judge you anymore than the others here already have. I only wish to tell you: CONFESS.
At very least – never reproduce!
I think that the chance that this guy is going to turn himself in is pretty slim. So it is pretty likely that he is going to get away with the horrible crime that he described.
But if his conscience is really bothering him, he should at the very least seek counseling so that he can eliminate/control his impulse to molest children.
If you don’t have the courage to face the punishment for your past crime(s), then you have an obligation to see that you don’t victimize anybody else.