He or she would be 1 year old on 11/8/10
Posted by Anonymous in Guilt on Oct 30th, 2010 | 7 commentsI was 18, pregnant, and terrified. No one knew anything. I was only 7 week along.
I couldn’t bear to think what my family would say. My grandmother hasn’t even accepted my 40 yr old cousin moving in with her bf of 5 yrs without getting married. What I could tell them. That it was only once. That I lost my virginity with a guy because I was feeling bad about myself. Yeah like they would believe the truth.
I panicked and started looking at my “options.” I found out that all it would take is parsley infusions and a high doses of ascorbic acid (vitamin C).
I hate myself for this. I go on with my life and keep my suffering silent because I can’t tell anyone.
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I’m sorry you didn’t feel like you would have had support. I can’t say I agree with what you did but I’ve been in your situation and every “Option” does cross your mind. Even the options you never thought you’d consider. Not sure about your spiritual orientation but God doesn’t make mistakes. I’ll say a prayer for you but to confess as you did here may be the only way to be at peace…
I’m sorry this has all happened. But my advice is turn to Jesus Christ. Truly be sorry and God to forgive you. Ask Jesus to bring peace into your heart. Your child is in heaven with God, don’t worry. If you are/become saved by Christ, one day you will meet him/her. :) Anyways, I think you need to forgive yourself too! But do this through Christ, He will help you out. You are loved no matter what. It’ll be okay. God bless you <3 :)
*ask God to forgive you
mourn. live and mourn but continue to live and carry on. at the end, things will come together, and in the event that there really is a benevolent higher being, they will understand and forgive you, just like i’m sure your child would.
Believe in yourself. Know that you did the best thing for yourself in the situation you were in at that time. And accept that you might not be happy with the decision you made, but you made what you felt was the best choice for the circumstances you were in. I believe if you were supposed to have that child, then it will come back to you in the future. Have faith that everything happens for a reason, and we’re all here to learn something :-)
Are you sure that you were really pregnant? Did you go to a doctor? Because vitamin C and parsely won’t kill a baby…pregnant women eat stuff like that daily. Or were you just hoping that you were pregnant and looked up some internet recipe? Because I actually had an abortion and it haunts me til this day…that is mentally and physically painful. So please don’t tell me you killed a baby with some parsely and vitamin c…you probably weren’t pregnant and if you were, it may have not survived anyway in which case, it may not have been your fault.
Also, at 7 weeks you would require a D & C medical procedure. So unless you did that you weren’t pregnant.