Hate my sick uncle

My uncle’s bowell ruptured and now he has to have one of those bag things. Everyone was really worried about him and thought he was going to die.

I hate my uncle and wasn’t really so bothered about his pain. But then I see his stupid, black-toothed face in my head and suddenly feel really cruel.I know that I should feel sorry for him but I just don’t. I’m just a bad person.