Secret Confessions

I have nothing valid to confess actually…..im just pouring out all the chaos n turmoil im my mind….life’s going fine but the scars that my previous relationship has left have become sour … i think of myself as a person bereft of human feelings … im not cribbing over past happenings but im laughing at myself for doing all those things.The last thing i wanna sound like is EMO… no depression bullshit ….no cuttin hand …..’
Only thing is that i feel im inadequate in the sense that if i ask out another girl ill be turned down….and there are other issues like lust …. you know the feeling when you look at a girl ..you hate her at the same time youre sexually attracted towards her….well a girl in my class sits right in front of me and i get so turned on by her ….**** shes so hot ….
So these are the things i go thru ,thanks for listening
p.s hope it gets published cuz it would really help.