Faking

I had depression for about a year. The thing is, I faked a lot of things and did a lot of it for attention. I know Im a terrible person and I feel really guilty. Im doing it less and less, trying to stop, because i know its horrible. I dont even know how much of it was real anymore. Im an attention whore and … Continue reading Faking

Lying

I can’t stop lying, I lie to everyone. I think it comes from a deep-rooted sense that I am not good enough for anyone. I just hate myself. My workplace all think I was a successful entrepreneur when I was younger. I am not. I was actually sat depressed in my room for a year very ill because I couldn’t stop lying. I just want … Continue reading Lying

DUI

I drove drunk tonight. Again. Maybe I was buzzed. Regardless, I’ve done this before. It makes me so ashamed of myself. I’m terrified of getting caught and I know I will eventually, and I want to stopen. I feel as though my actions will catch up with me, though, and I hate I do this to myself. I feel pathetic. I always ask God for … Continue reading DUI

Trustworthy?

I’m not sure why I’m doing this, but I thought it might help. I feel guilty rather easily, but I’m not looking for pity or anything like that. Another student on my course trusted me with a note to slip under my housemate’s door. She clearly really trusted me to do this and I could see that she was physically anxious about it. I took … Continue reading Trustworthy?