The Helpful Friend

I’m always there for my friends. When ever their in tough times or have troubling thoughts, Im there to give adivce and help cheer them up. But how come, when I need a shoulder to cry on, all I have a stupid pillow beside me? I reach out for help, but I dont get anything but sketchy replies. I thought it was cool knowing I was the one my friends come to for help. But when I need help, I cant give myself advice. I cant stop my own tears. I dont have anyone to help me. I dont have anyone to stop me from doing something stupid. Instead of cutting, I write to release my anger, sadness and pain. But sometimes, writing isnt going to cut it. As I write this, my wrists burn red with painful pleasure and I have no plan on stopping these scratches to turn into cuts on my wrists tonight.

4 Responses to “ “The Helpful Friend”

  1. moh says:

    well , i have the same character and i know how is it feel , the same happening to me exactly , u r so friendly with ur friends but they don’t appreciate it , all what u need is to believe u r good and become confident , u r so good person and the world need u for helping them now and later , don’t stop doing it by the death u have a big chance to help them again as it make u happy when u help someone and achieve what u wanted , but the problem now , u must have someone close to u , but not anyone , he or she must be the same type of character as u , (a character depends on feelings and emotions like ur way of living ) then trust me u will be good when u feel at least there is someone can feel u without u talk . if i was close to u i would help u ,but i’m sorry i’m not around u , anything else u want to say write on this page again and i will try to help u

  2. Z says:

    I have the same thing with my friends, I used to cut myself, my legs look absolutely horrible and I couldn’t tell anyone, or if I did they couldn’t respond to me the way I would be able to respond to them if they told me they cut themselves. I got things like “Oh” or “That’s bad” not anything substantial or even remotely helpful. When I look at my friends’ lives I feel like I can deal with more than they can because I have so many solutions, but my own life is so ****** up because there’s no one there with solutions except for myself.. And at the end of the day, I don’t want to come up with them anymore. After a while I realized a lot of people look up to me because I can help them when no one else can.. I provide what I would need for other people. So for now I’m just trying to be strong, I don’t want to tell anyone my problems anymore so they think I still have it together, they can rely on me and I know that by being there, I will eventually find someone who can do it for me too.

    • moh says:

      yes u r right , u must to find someone for helping u , but if u found the right one please don’t hurt him by using him , just tell him u like his friendship for him not for using him or her , trust me it can make a very big difference when u mean it and do it

  3. Boo says:

    I live your life. I’m everything that they need me to be, but they can never help. It sucks hardcore, because how do you tell someone that they’re not being a good enough friend. My advice, find an older friend that you can turn to, chances are you’re wise beyond your years, and you need someone to live up to your expectations. *Hence, someone older and more mature.*

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