And I don’t feel jealous of the man (he’s ugly) but he shows no interest in being friends with me. I don’t know why, I was the one who got her to do online dating in the first place. They wouldn’t have met if not for me! It’s all happening very quickly and I guess I’m afraid of losing yet another woman to “marriage land” because all these women think that IF I CAN JUST GET MARRIED EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT. yeah, right. I think I’m jealous that at 40 years old she can still get daddy to pay for the wedding. My father is dead. She just seems to get EVERYTHING: apartment bought for her, father pays mortgage, mother buys clothes for her…and my family is dead, nothing comes easy to me. I wish for just this time in my life things would come easy to me. I really do.