I was betrayed a few years ago by someone who used to be my best friend. She went down a dark path, and started blaming me for things I couldn’t help or weren’t my fault. Then she told other friends of mine lies about me so they turned their back on me without hearing my side.
So quickly, I had gone from having so many friends to nearly none. But one mutual friend, she couldn’t take from me. But they are still somehow friends. I wonder how they don’t see the truth… how they don’t see just what that person is and what they did to me. And I’m afraid that they’ll eventually be betrayed and hurt too.
What makes it worse is I have nightmares about her and the other friends I lost nearly every night, even though it’s been years. Sometimes in those dreams, I try to kill the one who betrayed me. And those are the best dreams. Because in it, I’d finally have justice for everything she took from me.
I want to kill her so badly. I want to make her hurt like me. But if my one friend left lost her, she’d be heartbroken.
Yet waiting around for that person to do the heartbreaking herself… it’s killing me instead.